Does he make you laugh? He doesn't make me cry for couples_therapy
That was always the problem with Sid, I’ve lost track of how many times he’s had me in tears, how many times he’s had me hating myself and wishing I’d never even met him. He made me want to kill myself for fucks sake, that’s never exactly a good sign is it? When the man you’re in love with makes you want to kill yourself you have to stop and wonder what the hell you’re doing, right? That’s the thing though, I was in love in him, I still am really even after everything he put me through, after he cheated on me with Michelle and accused me of cheating on him while I was away, but that’s just the thing isn’t it? Love doesn’t make sense does it?
Anyway I’m not with Sid anymore, because we were destructive to each other and he made it impossible for me to forget what he and Michelle did so, well I decided it was better if we just broke up. I’m with Tony now, in Cardiff which was always where I was going to go to university and apparently it was for him too. Tony used to go out with Michelle and for a while back when she and Sid were together I thought we might end up together then, just for like something to do I guess. He and Michelle were meant to be getting back together. But I’m sure I’ll get plenty of chance to talk about all that some other time. I should keep to the topic in hand right? He’s completely different to Sid, he’s confident and knows what he’s doing. He doesn’t say stupid things or do stupid things. I’m not in love with him, but I like him. He’s easy to be with and never mentions Michelle because he knows how much she hurt me, she hurt him too of course so I guess it works for the both of us. I suppose it’s the fact that I don’t love him that means he can’t hurt me as much as Sid always could, whether he meant to or not, but then he’s smarter than Sid, knows how to tell people what they want to hear, I know that’s not always a great talent to have, but it works for me. I’m still pretty fragile see I’m not sure I could deal with a completely honest relationship at the moment, so this is good. The funny thing is though I’m scared one day I might fall in love with him, then I’ll be in the exact same mess I was in with Sid because as soon as you really care about someone that’s when they can tear your world apart.
Anyway I’m not with Sid anymore, because we were destructive to each other and he made it impossible for me to forget what he and Michelle did so, well I decided it was better if we just broke up. I’m with Tony now, in Cardiff which was always where I was going to go to university and apparently it was for him too. Tony used to go out with Michelle and for a while back when she and Sid were together I thought we might end up together then, just for like something to do I guess. He and Michelle were meant to be getting back together. But I’m sure I’ll get plenty of chance to talk about all that some other time. I should keep to the topic in hand right? He’s completely different to Sid, he’s confident and knows what he’s doing. He doesn’t say stupid things or do stupid things. I’m not in love with him, but I like him. He’s easy to be with and never mentions Michelle because he knows how much she hurt me, she hurt him too of course so I guess it works for the both of us. I suppose it’s the fact that I don’t love him that means he can’t hurt me as much as Sid always could, whether he meant to or not, but then he’s smarter than Sid, knows how to tell people what they want to hear, I know that’s not always a great talent to have, but it works for me. I’m still pretty fragile see I’m not sure I could deal with a completely honest relationship at the moment, so this is good. The funny thing is though I’m scared one day I might fall in love with him, then I’ll be in the exact same mess I was in with Sid because as soon as you really care about someone that’s when they can tear your world apart.