State of the Denzi Report
Today is a bad executive function day, case: brainweasels. Got up to head to Columbus for class, got distracted by fanfiction, forgot to open the blinds, as a result ended up with extra no-light brainweasels + inability to decide whether or not to drive to class (we were supposed to get freezing rain). Eventually decided to go out in the freezing rain (which was mostly rain), and go to class. I honestly don't know whether I made the right decision: if I get stuck in Columbus tonight (more freezing rain + snow), I think it may be worse, because sleeping next to T. is really beneficial for my mental health. Spent most of the drive over on the phone--I know it's dangerous, but I really needed an Air Traffic Controller for my brain, or at least a distraction, because otherwise I was pretty sure I was gonna just stop. Or turn around. Because the black hole of my house was sucking me in, and I needed the Air Traffic Controller to decide whether that was self-preservation or brainweasels.
Anyway, I'm here for my second class, and I'm convincing myself to sit through it by thinking of it as "sock knitting time + a few notes" rather than "lecture + discussion." Fortunately, I like the professor and he likes me (he wrote me a recommendation letter for the program), so it will be less disrespectful than it sounds. (Especially considering last week was "This third of the classroom are clearly all depressive, because we all have Extra Special Intense Depressive midterm + weather symptoms." I PTSD-ed out of class for a bit, and one of my friends went home halfway through. (Have I told y'all this already?)
So yes, today is as bad as it sounds, but mostly I've been having decent days--couldn't think of much to update the psychiatrist on yesterday other than I'm busy and happy with working at my local yarn store and taking classes and volunteering.
In other news, now that I am slowly making my way through A Game of Thrones (the book, obvs), I really want this shirt:
https://www.teepublic.com/show/64621-house-of-tony-stark
But there are other things I need more (not that I can think of any of them right now, thanks, lack of piloting in my brain), so it may have to wait.
Right now, hand-knitted socks, The Flash, and T. are my happy things.
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Anyway, I'm here for my second class, and I'm convincing myself to sit through it by thinking of it as "sock knitting time + a few notes" rather than "lecture + discussion." Fortunately, I like the professor and he likes me (he wrote me a recommendation letter for the program), so it will be less disrespectful than it sounds. (Especially considering last week was "This third of the classroom are clearly all depressive, because we all have Extra Special Intense Depressive midterm + weather symptoms." I PTSD-ed out of class for a bit, and one of my friends went home halfway through. (Have I told y'all this already?)
So yes, today is as bad as it sounds, but mostly I've been having decent days--couldn't think of much to update the psychiatrist on yesterday other than I'm busy and happy with working at my local yarn store and taking classes and volunteering.
In other news, now that I am slowly making my way through A Game of Thrones (the book, obvs), I really want this shirt:
https://www.teepublic.com/show/64621-house-of-tony-stark
But there are other things I need more (not that I can think of any of them right now, thanks, lack of piloting in my brain), so it may have to wait.
Right now, hand-knitted socks, The Flash, and T. are my happy things.
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comments at Dreamwidth. Comment there.)