What I'm Reading Wednesday
Actually on a Wednesday! Shock!
Before I get to that, I'd like to say a thing that I often have to say to my best friend (and to hermionesviolin, for that matter): things are going pretty well. You might not know it to look from my journal entries, because I tend to talk (rant?) more at people when things are going poorly than when they're going well, because when they're going well I'm just doing them. And/or I'm posting them at
awesomeers or
3_good_things_a_day.
So the general state of me is:
- slightly depressed (situational--season and let-down from moving)
+ doing well in classes
- although I could stand to be more communicative with professors when I skip class
+ really happy with how happy T. is with life. I've told several people that when I married him, I accepted that he had a melancholic/sarcastic/pessimistic temperament. But then he has been working at Mad Scientist Engineer With Lasers job for about three months and he has been happy to a level that I didn't actually think was in his emotional range. It turns out working at a job that feels like a vocation and is a really good fit culture wise is much better for my spouse's emotional health than working in academia for Emotionally Abusive!Advisor. Who would have thought?
+ I am generally batting away the brainweasels quickly enough to proceed with applying to grad schools, and I will be taking some grad classes in the spring along with another prerequisite (sociology not with Gaslighty As Fuck Professor) and more ASL.
- Making friends is a reeeeeeeeeally slow process. And anxiety brainweasels have been intruding enough to make me think that a person who is busy because she is pregnant and in residency is "avoiding me because she hates me." Le sigh.
+ Church is actually a delight. I love my Queer Little Youth Group That Could. I love getting to know people.
+ My brother came to visit this past weekend and we did a bunch of traditional Ohio things (corn maze! Drinking Ohio microbrew beer! Watch the weather go from 30 F to 60 F and back several times in three days! Go to the US Air Force Museum which is 1000 times better than the Smithsonian Air and Space Museum! etc.)
+ Today I had an intake appointment with a women's mental health NP who is a: 1 hour closer to my house than the one in Columbus and b: seemed more likely to make decisions with me instead of paternalistically for me. So that's exciting.
+ My birthday is tomorrow, tonight is Date Night in the Denzi-Thorya household, and this weekend we are going on a vacation for our wedding anniversary--2.5 days of hangouts and sexiness, an evening with my in-laws, and if I can remember to ask both finding_helena and T., we might be able to coordinate Arkham Horror with finding_helena and her spouse. (Hey, finding_helena, T. doesn't have to work and I don't have class next Monday or Tuesday, so we would probably be free during the day Monday or Tuesday? I just need to remember to ask T!)
And now, actual Reading Wednesday!
What I've just finished
The Armor of Light, by Melissa Scott and Lisa Barnett. Hat-tip to jo_graham, who advertised a series of books on sale that all sounded like they were made for me, including her own.
The historical intersection of Christianity and systems of magic is a place of happiness and interest for me, so this alternate history of the late Elizabethan area fascinated me from the beginning. Add in Christopher Marlowe POV and I was sold. And then I got to about 95% through the book and discovered that (not really a spoiler) the denouement hinged on the Anglican Collect for the First Sunday of Advent, which is hanging on my living room wall and I decided that this book was made for me.
What I'm reading now
[redacted Yuletide source material], fanfiction on Tumblr. I'm between books a little bit.
What I'm reading next
I have not decided between picking up another of Jo Graham's recs and finishing Holly Black's Curse Workers series. And I might finally be ready to pick up Lirael by Garth Nix. (Have read Sabriel several times, but only searched out Lirael once and couldn't get into it. But my brother read Sabriel and started Lirael over his weekend visit, so I feel like now might be the time.)
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Oh, one final thing that should probably go under my "notes about life" section. I have decided in lieu of NaBloPoMo to do a DeUnFuMo, i.e. Denzi's Unfuckening Month. I have managed to "put it away, not down" with all of my dishes and purchases so far this month, and I am generally trying to do 20 minutes of cleaning a day. Maybe I shall post before/after pictures in order to keep myself accountable. We'll see.
<3 to you all!
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comments at Dreamwidth. Comment there.)
Before I get to that, I'd like to say a thing that I often have to say to my best friend (and to hermionesviolin, for that matter): things are going pretty well. You might not know it to look from my journal entries, because I tend to talk (rant?) more at people when things are going poorly than when they're going well, because when they're going well I'm just doing them. And/or I'm posting them at
awesomeers or
3_good_things_a_day.
So the general state of me is:
- slightly depressed (situational--season and let-down from moving)
+ doing well in classes
- although I could stand to be more communicative with professors when I skip class
+ really happy with how happy T. is with life. I've told several people that when I married him, I accepted that he had a melancholic/sarcastic/pessimistic temperament. But then he has been working at Mad Scientist Engineer With Lasers job for about three months and he has been happy to a level that I didn't actually think was in his emotional range. It turns out working at a job that feels like a vocation and is a really good fit culture wise is much better for my spouse's emotional health than working in academia for Emotionally Abusive!Advisor. Who would have thought?
+ I am generally batting away the brainweasels quickly enough to proceed with applying to grad schools, and I will be taking some grad classes in the spring along with another prerequisite (sociology not with Gaslighty As Fuck Professor) and more ASL.
- Making friends is a reeeeeeeeeally slow process. And anxiety brainweasels have been intruding enough to make me think that a person who is busy because she is pregnant and in residency is "avoiding me because she hates me." Le sigh.
+ Church is actually a delight. I love my Queer Little Youth Group That Could. I love getting to know people.
+ My brother came to visit this past weekend and we did a bunch of traditional Ohio things (corn maze! Drinking Ohio microbrew beer! Watch the weather go from 30 F to 60 F and back several times in three days! Go to the US Air Force Museum which is 1000 times better than the Smithsonian Air and Space Museum! etc.)
+ Today I had an intake appointment with a women's mental health NP who is a: 1 hour closer to my house than the one in Columbus and b: seemed more likely to make decisions with me instead of paternalistically for me. So that's exciting.
+ My birthday is tomorrow, tonight is Date Night in the Denzi-Thorya household, and this weekend we are going on a vacation for our wedding anniversary--2.5 days of hangouts and sexiness, an evening with my in-laws, and if I can remember to ask both finding_helena and T., we might be able to coordinate Arkham Horror with finding_helena and her spouse. (Hey, finding_helena, T. doesn't have to work and I don't have class next Monday or Tuesday, so we would probably be free during the day Monday or Tuesday? I just need to remember to ask T!)
And now, actual Reading Wednesday!
What I've just finished
The Armor of Light, by Melissa Scott and Lisa Barnett. Hat-tip to jo_graham, who advertised a series of books on sale that all sounded like they were made for me, including her own.
The historical intersection of Christianity and systems of magic is a place of happiness and interest for me, so this alternate history of the late Elizabethan area fascinated me from the beginning. Add in Christopher Marlowe POV and I was sold. And then I got to about 95% through the book and discovered that (not really a spoiler) the denouement hinged on the Anglican Collect for the First Sunday of Advent, which is hanging on my living room wall and I decided that this book was made for me.
What I'm reading now
[redacted Yuletide source material], fanfiction on Tumblr. I'm between books a little bit.
What I'm reading next
I have not decided between picking up another of Jo Graham's recs and finishing Holly Black's Curse Workers series. And I might finally be ready to pick up Lirael by Garth Nix. (Have read Sabriel several times, but only searched out Lirael once and couldn't get into it. But my brother read Sabriel and started Lirael over his weekend visit, so I feel like now might be the time.)
*
Oh, one final thing that should probably go under my "notes about life" section. I have decided in lieu of NaBloPoMo to do a DeUnFuMo, i.e. Denzi's Unfuckening Month. I have managed to "put it away, not down" with all of my dishes and purchases so far this month, and I am generally trying to do 20 minutes of cleaning a day. Maybe I shall post before/after pictures in order to keep myself accountable. We'll see.
<3 to you all!
(
comments at Dreamwidth. Comment there.)