wherein I am not quite maudlin, but somewhat embarrassed
So I get on the book of faces this morning, which is what my brain tells me I'm saying every time my fingers type facebook, and Josh, the Josh I've been going on and on about, has changed his relationship to involved and is apparently in a romantic relationship with some other person (whom I do not know).
Wow. Hi there left field. Didn't see ya there.
Here's the thing though: I'm mostly ok. A bit like "what?", interspersed with "wtf?", with an occasional quiet "oh" thrown in for good measure but mostly "good for Josh, I guess".
My pride is a bit wounded, definitely. My feelings a wee bit hurt that not only did he not mention this at all in any context or capacity 4 days ago, but neither did his sister, who I saw yesterday and is my dear friend, think that perhaps I might want to have a heads up before facebook was notified.
I don't think my heart's broken, which is good. I think I was more enamoured with the idea of Josh than with Josh himself, although I do like him as a person. I probably am going to continue to be friendly and to be friends with him but give me a day or two to process, you know? It's just kind of weird.
Mostly I think I'm embarrassed. I had kind of thought that we had been heading towards a romantic-type relationship and I guess we weren't. And like, am I the only one that thought that? I at the time didn't think that I was. Other people I spoke with that know the both of us were all like "yeah, ya'll go for it". I kept hearing all about how shy Josh is and that's why I wasn't too worried about being the invite-er almost all the times that we hung out but now I feel like "omg what if he really was just being nice to his friend's sister and his sister's friend and I really was being a pushy person?"
I really doesn't help that his new girlfriend is pretty and tiny. Really doesn't .
People are HARD ya'll.
Wow. Hi there left field. Didn't see ya there.
Here's the thing though: I'm mostly ok. A bit like "what?", interspersed with "wtf?", with an occasional quiet "oh" thrown in for good measure but mostly "good for Josh, I guess".
My pride is a bit wounded, definitely. My feelings a wee bit hurt that not only did he not mention this at all in any context or capacity 4 days ago, but neither did his sister, who I saw yesterday and is my dear friend, think that perhaps I might want to have a heads up before facebook was notified.
I don't think my heart's broken, which is good. I think I was more enamoured with the idea of Josh than with Josh himself, although I do like him as a person. I probably am going to continue to be friendly and to be friends with him but give me a day or two to process, you know? It's just kind of weird.
Mostly I think I'm embarrassed. I had kind of thought that we had been heading towards a romantic-type relationship and I guess we weren't. And like, am I the only one that thought that? I at the time didn't think that I was. Other people I spoke with that know the both of us were all like "yeah, ya'll go for it". I kept hearing all about how shy Josh is and that's why I wasn't too worried about being the invite-er almost all the times that we hung out but now I feel like "omg what if he really was just being nice to his friend's sister and his sister's friend and I really was being a pushy person?"
I really doesn't help that his new girlfriend is pretty and tiny. Really doesn't .
People are HARD ya'll.