This turned out to be longer than expected...
I knew a gain was bound to happen but I am still upset. I'm blaming it entirely on the glorious weight gain that comes with getting your, excuse me, period. Fucker.
I've also realized that having a five hour class fucks with my eating habits. I try to eat a small dinner before that, like yesterday I had a sandwich. I'm usually okay until about 10, when class gets out. Then I get home and raid the fridge, junk food cabinet, everything. I'm like a fucking monster. It is quite disturbing. I need to eliminate this habit immediately. Maybe I should start saving some points for the night so I can have a light snack during class. The only thing is, I don't think SXU offers ANYTHING healthy. Crispy chicken salads, chips galore, and cookies. Ugh. Maybe, if I wasn't always running late, I could bring my own...
Finally, I've had ALOT on my mind. I'm super confused with grad school and part of it is because I don't know where I will be working in August. Shit, I don't know where I'll be working come June! Anyway, I don't know if I should take geography as an online course (which, I suck at) or take it Tuesdays and Thursdays for four weeks at JJC. The only problem with that is I would be in class Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Its summer, who in their right mind wants to do that?!
Then, I don't know if I should double up on grad classes in the fall so that I can student teach in a middle school come January or if I should flip flop my Fall 07 semester with my Spring 07 semester. That would mean putting off student teaching until August 2007 but having my middle school endorsement before I student teach. Frustrating.
It all depends on where I'm working. I would like to stay with Jon at Summit Hill but, the district has to let me go. It's one of their policies. I've been asked to reapply but, I can't wait until October for a job again. And, if I did have to wait that long, I would be student teaching in January so it would be pointless.
I sent my resume to St. Laurence and Seton Academy--both for English teaching positions--but STL hired someone already. I did receive an email from Seton saying they would contact me for an interview after Spring Break so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. The only thing is, do I really want to travel from Homer to South Holland EVERY DAY?! That's a hike and traffic is horrendous (I only know this because I subbed there a few times last September). I guess you gotta do what you gotta do. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I really liked the staff there. And, if you were wondering, Seton is a co-ed Catholic high school. I would love to coach cheerleading there as well but, I'm sure someone already does it. I can't get my hopes up but, I'm not gonna lie, they kinda already are.
Other than that, I've been having some issues with friendship and the distance between. What the hell, all of you who read this know what I'm talking about. Cate and I just aren't the same as we were this time last year, or even 8 months ago. We've drifted. We're both upset about it but everytime we try to talk, one offends the other one. I think part of it is because we only talk over instant messenger. I dunno, we're suppose to talk today but I'm super busy and I know she is too. The thing is, I feel like I've tried and tried and tried and things are fine for like, 3 days and then they go back to us not really talking. It's hard . It's hard when you've basically grown up (in a sense) with someone, known them since early high school, practically are a member of their family, and then you just don't talk. I mean, I still treat her family the same way I would 8 months ago--sending Danny, Jimmy, and Ma birthday cards, listening to Chuck complain (he doesn't really do that to me anymore though) and so on. I just wish it was the same with her and I.
The worst part about it is I think the two of us act like we're okay with not talking when I know I'm not. Ask Sarah and Megan, one ounce of alcohol hits my lips and I talk about how much I miss her as a friend and how bothered I am by the situation. I want it to be resolved but, I know it will take time. But, we can't wait until she comes home in May because things will just be at a heightened state, if you know what I mean. Ugh. My life is a confusing mess!
I'm going to U of I this weekend to celebrate Sarah and Mike's birthdays. It should be a good time and we're going all out because Mike didn't go out for his birthday back on March 28 and Sarah can't go out for her's because it's Good Friday and because she has people coming in from out of town. It should be ALOT of fun!
I just think I need a break from life. From school, work, transportation, everything. I need my vacation. August 5 and Aruba cannot come fast enough!