Wow, I suck
Today, the day after Christmas, I went to Orland mall. I know, what was I thinking... Well, I was up early because Joe left for work at 6:45, went tanning, and met Megs to help each other find a NYE outfit for Vegas.
I've been cleaning my room since. Well, not cleaning but dissecting. I stumbled across a bag of notes, ticket stubs, shit like that and I realized alot of things that I need to work on in 2006.
1. I need to be a better girlfriend to Joe. Every card or letter I read from Brian was something along the lines of "I'm glad things are finally figured out" or "I'm sorry we keep fighting." I find myself fighting with him and then, sometimes, I forget what we're even fighting about. I need to stop letting the little things bother me SO much or else we'll end up like we did on Friday night...
2. I suck at being a friend so I need to work at that one too. Reading notes from Cate, Katie, Liz, Lauren, and Sarah made me miss high school and miss them but notes from Ryan and Christina made me realize that I haven't always been a good person. I left people out then bitched at them for doing it to me. I would talk to guys behind Ryan's back. I would only worry about myself and my popularity. How shitty. I really hope I'm not that person anymore and if I am, then all my friends need to punch the shit out of me. I'm sorry to those I hurt and hope to become a much better person in 2006.
3. Losing weight in a healthy manner. Although I've joined Weight Watchers, with it being the holiday season and living at home with the skinniest people I know, I find it hard to control myself. I read through some of the notes and I had the beginnings of an eating disorder in high school. Thankfully people like Katie Campbell made me lunch thankfully all my friends (then and today) help me realize that I am better than size tag on a pair of pants.
That's all for now. I know I will think of more before Saturday I just need a nap BADLY right now to help get rid of this cold and rid myself of crabbiness.
I've been cleaning my room since. Well, not cleaning but dissecting. I stumbled across a bag of notes, ticket stubs, shit like that and I realized alot of things that I need to work on in 2006.
1. I need to be a better girlfriend to Joe. Every card or letter I read from Brian was something along the lines of "I'm glad things are finally figured out" or "I'm sorry we keep fighting." I find myself fighting with him and then, sometimes, I forget what we're even fighting about. I need to stop letting the little things bother me SO much or else we'll end up like we did on Friday night...
2. I suck at being a friend so I need to work at that one too. Reading notes from Cate, Katie, Liz, Lauren, and Sarah made me miss high school and miss them but notes from Ryan and Christina made me realize that I haven't always been a good person. I left people out then bitched at them for doing it to me. I would talk to guys behind Ryan's back. I would only worry about myself and my popularity. How shitty. I really hope I'm not that person anymore and if I am, then all my friends need to punch the shit out of me. I'm sorry to those I hurt and hope to become a much better person in 2006.
3. Losing weight in a healthy manner. Although I've joined Weight Watchers, with it being the holiday season and living at home with the skinniest people I know, I find it hard to control myself. I read through some of the notes and I had the beginnings of an eating disorder in high school. Thankfully people like Katie Campbell made me lunch thankfully all my friends (then and today) help me realize that I am better than size tag on a pair of pants.
That's all for now. I know I will think of more before Saturday I just need a nap BADLY right now to help get rid of this cold and rid myself of crabbiness.