Mar 02, 2006 21:02
Okay so I know I have already made a post today but I feel the need to make another one. I have so many thoughts going through my head right now..I am at the library trying to study and I can't because my mind is just not on school right now. After I went to softball practice today I got into my truck and drove to get something to eat I started feeling really homesick for some reason and I called my mom and talked to her for a little while and then I felt much better. I love my family and miss them more than anything.
Does God ever place someone on your heart and on your mind and you have no idea why? They are someone who you really don't know that well and have only came in contact with a few times. God has done that to me and I know that it is for a reason but I am having a hard time with it. I started off just praying and lifting this persons name up to God when I would think about them and I still do that but this has been going on for a while now and I have no idea what to do about it...I pray about it ALL THE TIME and I know that God will resolve it in his own way and in his own time and I need to be patient but I am struggling with that so bad right now. This weekend I decided I was going to forget all about this person and not think about it anymore and if they came across my mind I was just gonna lift up a prayer for them and not think too much about why? But starting Sunday and everyday this week I have ran into this person somewhere I was not expecting to see them.((weird))Even when I do not see this person someone else brings this persons name up and starts to talk about them and I am like HOLY MOLY(in the words of Kaylie) I cannot escape this person and the funny thing is..is that this person has no idea and would be completely shocked by this. I know that they are on my mind for a reason I just don't know what that is and until God reveals that reason to me I am struggling with what to do now...Do I let this person know about this..Do I keep quite and don't say anything..DO I...DO I...DO I..I have no idea..I am trying to trust God the best I can but my human instincts is to fix this myself and I know that I can't do that because I want it to be God's way and I need to be reminded of that everyday. I am really sorry I just went off on a rant but I feel much better and I am not sure if that even makes sense but it made sense in my head(which doesnt mean much). If you are still reading this God Bless You! Thanks for listening...Have a great weekend. =)