this one is for you kim!

[cactusstitch]

Introspective. Retrospective. I am thinking about the way I was before. Did I like myself better then? I was never a doer - but I want to be one now. I like the people I have met, but I don't like the way I have become. I get attached to people to easily and then get frustrated with them quickly - but I have always been like that except for few. Friends to have fun with are lovely and friends you reach on deeper levels are amazing - but the best is when you get both. I only have had a few friends like that. One I don't to speak to much anymore. Another will be my best friend forever and ever. And the others are my siblings. There is some information in life that you should never willingly say to people. I don't have discretion - I inherited that from my father - although he is learning. I miss the old days. I don't want to grow up. I am going to sleep now.

Life is a terrible thing to sleep through... Well fuck it I am doing it anyway!

<3 carolyn

p.s. -- was that depressing enough for you kim?