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Sometimes I'm too melodramatic. But I still feel like shit.
For some reason livejournal is not blocked at school, so I wasted about 10 minutes looking up proxy sites when I didn't even need 'em.
I have to see him next period... He still wants to be friends, but I think it will take me a while.
Being at school feels really shitty in general, and, to be honest, I can barely force myself to do any schoolwork anymore. It all feels so pointless. I know that I talk shit about our American school systems all the time, about how lax they are and how this just trains our students to become lazy and have no strict commitment to school or to learning. And I guess I've fallen into the trap pretty badly myself.
Well, the bell just rang, so I gotta go for my alloted 25 minutes of SSR. Conditioned to run to class just like Pavlov's dogs are conditioned to salivate.
None of it matters in the end.
For some reason livejournal is not blocked at school, so I wasted about 10 minutes looking up proxy sites when I didn't even need 'em.
I have to see him next period... He still wants to be friends, but I think it will take me a while.
Being at school feels really shitty in general, and, to be honest, I can barely force myself to do any schoolwork anymore. It all feels so pointless. I know that I talk shit about our American school systems all the time, about how lax they are and how this just trains our students to become lazy and have no strict commitment to school or to learning. And I guess I've fallen into the trap pretty badly myself.
Well, the bell just rang, so I gotta go for my alloted 25 minutes of SSR. Conditioned to run to class just like Pavlov's dogs are conditioned to salivate.
None of it matters in the end.