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i really, really, really, really wanna know where i come from
this is so stupid to say but i'm not sure i'll ever be able to watch futurama without my throat tightening
what spurred the thought was seeing that little bit in the episode where leela finds her parents - this little montage involving them just invisibly butting in throughout her life, where she thinks they're dead..
i stood up and changed the channel (thanks, lack of AA batteries for the remote) and tried to be strong and just crossed my arms... but then the tears started and i just kinda walked around a bit but then fell against my bedroom's doorframe and cried a bit. i only let out the ones i couldn't hold in. i have to be strong about it.
but the thought as i stared straight ahead still echoes so loudly in my brain. where are you guys?
this gaping hole is so much more painful and unique and lonely than any biologically-situated child can understand. so many facts and lack thereof and thoughts.
where are you guys?
this is so stupid to say but i'm not sure i'll ever be able to watch futurama without my throat tightening
what spurred the thought was seeing that little bit in the episode where leela finds her parents - this little montage involving them just invisibly butting in throughout her life, where she thinks they're dead..
i stood up and changed the channel (thanks, lack of AA batteries for the remote) and tried to be strong and just crossed my arms... but then the tears started and i just kinda walked around a bit but then fell against my bedroom's doorframe and cried a bit. i only let out the ones i couldn't hold in. i have to be strong about it.
but the thought as i stared straight ahead still echoes so loudly in my brain. where are you guys?
this gaping hole is so much more painful and unique and lonely than any biologically-situated child can understand. so many facts and lack thereof and thoughts.
where are you guys?