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I feel like the hugest idiot that ever was.
Having fun in the new rp, playing happily, getting these big ole plots started with a couple chars and some more minor plots going with some other characters-- admittedly, the big ole plots are the ones with scenes being finished in a rapid-fire sort of manner, and the minor plots are going pretty slow. But hey, it's only been three days IC since I started playing! I figure, take it slow, build things up, that's fun, right?
Wrong. Turns out people have "noticed" that I've "only been playing with a couple people" ;.; And when I get told this I'm all-- "but I have been playing with other people o.o the scenes just aren't done yet". And me and the mod go round and round and round and round, her saying "yes but you still need to stay open to other people. maybe ping them on aim or post on the ooc community that you want scenes?" and I say "yes, I did that o.o I answered a number of people's ooc posts saying "yay, please, play with me!" and I've pinged a few people in AIM and via email to ask for scenes-- so if I'm giving this impression, it's not the right one. how can I fix it? spread out the posts and intersperse them with posts by non-plottish people?" and her answer is "no, hun, you don't understand-- be open to playing with other people" and I come back with "but I am! the scenes just aren't done yet!"
... I still don't think we quite understood each other, but I gave in and she backed off and now I've apped for a second character in an attempt to spread myself out more. Not that I didn't want to app a second character-- had actually been holding a completed app for several days, and another for a couple weeks-- but since when I first tried to app for a second character, I was told "hey, give your first a few more weeks to get settled, then app for a second : ) " I was, y'know, gonna wait a few weeks! So that, at least, I'm totally not complaining about.
But oh god I feel stupid for getting frustrated and getting her frustrated, and I still feel put-upon because I wasn't doing anything wrong, the other scenes just aren't done yet. How the hell can I play a grouchy old demon with a bunch of annoying, angsty teenagers, anyway? DX I've already got plans to plot him with a hunter, an angel, at least one probably two demons, but I can't exactly drop him into an open scene with a hitch-hiking teenaged boy when he'd never pick up a hitch-hiker, or a scene in a library with a teenaged girl who he'd never talk to, or a pretty human vampire female who he wouldn't give a shit about because he's only into you if you have scales-- especially not when he was already busy at the time she went into the bar, anyway!
Which I suppose is part of the "problem". The IC days fill up. My grouchy, old demon character can only do so much in one day, even though I, personally, could do quite a bit more-- and my grouchy, old demon doesn't do scenes without any element of plot to them very well. He is taciturn and grumpy and Not Very Nice. Hence, the suggestion that I take on another character.
But I wish she'd have just given me credit for playing other scenes that weren't done yet, instead of going "yes, but" over and over and over again. I kept feeling like I was in trouble, and it made me stressy. I'm not used to mods. Mods are teh scary. So when a mod says "um, you're doing it wrong" I immediately think "oh god how do I fit it? D= " and that only made her frustrated? Or something? And her frustration only stressed me out more and... I feel like an idiot who can't understand people >.<
At least one of the people I've been "playing too much" with thinks I shouldn't worry about it and is still way-fucking-cool. I love her muchly. I didn't talk to the other, but I think she's... shy >.> Or something. She doesn't talk much.
Bah. Whatever. It's late, I'm tired, I needed to vent so I could sleep, and I'm getting a second (and fairly soon after, a third) character. Yay! Let's just see how much of said characters they want me to tweak first : P
This whole thing is so different from everything I'm used to. It takes so much getting used to. I miss my email rp ;.;
:: goes to collapse into bed ::
Having fun in the new rp, playing happily, getting these big ole plots started with a couple chars and some more minor plots going with some other characters-- admittedly, the big ole plots are the ones with scenes being finished in a rapid-fire sort of manner, and the minor plots are going pretty slow. But hey, it's only been three days IC since I started playing! I figure, take it slow, build things up, that's fun, right?
Wrong. Turns out people have "noticed" that I've "only been playing with a couple people" ;.; And when I get told this I'm all-- "but I have been playing with other people o.o the scenes just aren't done yet". And me and the mod go round and round and round and round, her saying "yes but you still need to stay open to other people. maybe ping them on aim or post on the ooc community that you want scenes?" and I say "yes, I did that o.o I answered a number of people's ooc posts saying "yay, please, play with me!" and I've pinged a few people in AIM and via email to ask for scenes-- so if I'm giving this impression, it's not the right one. how can I fix it? spread out the posts and intersperse them with posts by non-plottish people?" and her answer is "no, hun, you don't understand-- be open to playing with other people" and I come back with "but I am! the scenes just aren't done yet!"
... I still don't think we quite understood each other, but I gave in and she backed off and now I've apped for a second character in an attempt to spread myself out more. Not that I didn't want to app a second character-- had actually been holding a completed app for several days, and another for a couple weeks-- but since when I first tried to app for a second character, I was told "hey, give your first a few more weeks to get settled, then app for a second : ) " I was, y'know, gonna wait a few weeks! So that, at least, I'm totally not complaining about.
But oh god I feel stupid for getting frustrated and getting her frustrated, and I still feel put-upon because I wasn't doing anything wrong, the other scenes just aren't done yet. How the hell can I play a grouchy old demon with a bunch of annoying, angsty teenagers, anyway? DX I've already got plans to plot him with a hunter, an angel, at least one probably two demons, but I can't exactly drop him into an open scene with a hitch-hiking teenaged boy when he'd never pick up a hitch-hiker, or a scene in a library with a teenaged girl who he'd never talk to, or a pretty human vampire female who he wouldn't give a shit about because he's only into you if you have scales-- especially not when he was already busy at the time she went into the bar, anyway!
Which I suppose is part of the "problem". The IC days fill up. My grouchy, old demon character can only do so much in one day, even though I, personally, could do quite a bit more-- and my grouchy, old demon doesn't do scenes without any element of plot to them very well. He is taciturn and grumpy and Not Very Nice. Hence, the suggestion that I take on another character.
But I wish she'd have just given me credit for playing other scenes that weren't done yet, instead of going "yes, but" over and over and over again. I kept feeling like I was in trouble, and it made me stressy. I'm not used to mods. Mods are teh scary. So when a mod says "um, you're doing it wrong" I immediately think "oh god how do I fit it? D= " and that only made her frustrated? Or something? And her frustration only stressed me out more and... I feel like an idiot who can't understand people >.<
At least one of the people I've been "playing too much" with thinks I shouldn't worry about it and is still way-fucking-cool. I love her muchly. I didn't talk to the other, but I think she's... shy >.> Or something. She doesn't talk much.
Bah. Whatever. It's late, I'm tired, I needed to vent so I could sleep, and I'm getting a second (and fairly soon after, a third) character. Yay! Let's just see how much of said characters they want me to tweak first : P
This whole thing is so different from everything I'm used to. It takes so much getting used to. I miss my email rp ;.;
:: goes to collapse into bed ::