just when things get good, the goin' gets tough
yea, so if my entire life is going to be like this i don't know what i'm going to do. it gives you what you want and its in your reach, you may as well have it, you get so excited. and then it snatches it away. just like that.
and what am i talking about? maggie. everything was getting good. she was being SO incredibly good. we were starting to work again and kazam she's lame. look, i didn't sign on for all the crap. i guess if you think about it everything has small print. it's like all the annoying plastic ties you have to take off your barbie before you can actually play with her. and then your sister pulls her head off and even though you snap it back in it keeps popping out and it's never the same again. i realize that donna wants maggie to be better and stuff but today i started seeing from my parents perspective. the chiropracter and her hocks done. what is that $500 per hock and $100 or so for the chiro? that's going to be like $1200. that's alot of money. all i want to do is show and have fun with my horse. is that really to much to ask? i guess so. and it was so close. westbrook is this month. donna thinks she's going to be all good for westbrook. at this point i have just totally stopped trying to be optimistic. i don't think it's worth it with horses. because if you get optimistic it all comes crashing down and it breaks your heart. because what you thought could be won't. ever. happen. maybe i'm just being really negative. maybe all she needs is her hocks done. but still it's so pricey. i don't know. i never know. maybe i should start knowing.
i really want to go visit griffin. but i think i would have a really hard time leaving without him. it's only when what you had is gone that you realize how incredibly amazing it was. he was crazy good. but i hope that he will make another little girl as happy as he made me. and he will go on contiuing to teach people how to ride horses. he knows his job backwards and forewards. and he was damn good at it. and he didn't want to give it up. even when he was in alot of pain.
i <3 you griffin. always my little boy.
yea, so as you probably have guessed i'm pmsing and being evil and negative this week. you know crappy news always comes during my period. it's like bad karma or something. so in normality hopefully maggie will be put back together soon, i will go see griffin, and just chill on break.
time for bed. last day of capts tomorrow. i really hope i never have to take them again.
and what am i talking about? maggie. everything was getting good. she was being SO incredibly good. we were starting to work again and kazam she's lame. look, i didn't sign on for all the crap. i guess if you think about it everything has small print. it's like all the annoying plastic ties you have to take off your barbie before you can actually play with her. and then your sister pulls her head off and even though you snap it back in it keeps popping out and it's never the same again. i realize that donna wants maggie to be better and stuff but today i started seeing from my parents perspective. the chiropracter and her hocks done. what is that $500 per hock and $100 or so for the chiro? that's going to be like $1200. that's alot of money. all i want to do is show and have fun with my horse. is that really to much to ask? i guess so. and it was so close. westbrook is this month. donna thinks she's going to be all good for westbrook. at this point i have just totally stopped trying to be optimistic. i don't think it's worth it with horses. because if you get optimistic it all comes crashing down and it breaks your heart. because what you thought could be won't. ever. happen. maybe i'm just being really negative. maybe all she needs is her hocks done. but still it's so pricey. i don't know. i never know. maybe i should start knowing.
i really want to go visit griffin. but i think i would have a really hard time leaving without him. it's only when what you had is gone that you realize how incredibly amazing it was. he was crazy good. but i hope that he will make another little girl as happy as he made me. and he will go on contiuing to teach people how to ride horses. he knows his job backwards and forewards. and he was damn good at it. and he didn't want to give it up. even when he was in alot of pain.
i <3 you griffin. always my little boy.
yea, so as you probably have guessed i'm pmsing and being evil and negative this week. you know crappy news always comes during my period. it's like bad karma or something. so in normality hopefully maggie will be put back together soon, i will go see griffin, and just chill on break.
time for bed. last day of capts tomorrow. i really hope i never have to take them again.