I love you.....I love him
Last night Warren told me that he loved me. I proceeded to tell him that I still loved Cameron. I'm a really wretched person if you hadn't noticed. I've been dating this guy for six months and I can't love him. I must be seriously disturbed. I think I broke his heart.
It all started when I suggested we have an open relationship(crazy ,I know). I said that I don't want to like sleep with other people, I just want to kiss other people. I love kissing! There's just something fun about making out. He said no.
It's crazy to think that I would even want an open relationship after my many years of yearning for a stable relationship. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. I'm sure I would get too jealous anyway. I guess what I really want is to have Warren as my boyfriend but then also to be able to hook up with other people, but I don't want him to hook up with anyone else. Is that selfish? Yes...yes it is.
I'm like the guy in the relationship. I don't get super attached and I don't feel the need to be loved. I just want to enjoy his company. I'm so insensitive.
It all started when I suggested we have an open relationship(crazy ,I know). I said that I don't want to like sleep with other people, I just want to kiss other people. I love kissing! There's just something fun about making out. He said no.
It's crazy to think that I would even want an open relationship after my many years of yearning for a stable relationship. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. I'm sure I would get too jealous anyway. I guess what I really want is to have Warren as my boyfriend but then also to be able to hook up with other people, but I don't want him to hook up with anyone else. Is that selfish? Yes...yes it is.
I'm like the guy in the relationship. I don't get super attached and I don't feel the need to be loved. I just want to enjoy his company. I'm so insensitive.