Why Do I Do This To Myself?

[cabochonwolf]

I just don't understand why I spend countless hours feeling sad about myself. I'm about to finish school at ITT, and have already managed to get a bachelor of science degree from Kettering, which was a very, very difficult thing to do. And yet somehow I feel that I have managed to throw all that away. I look at job postings and read about people

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[cabochonwolf]

I'm glad that at least we can still relate to each other. We may only be someone's mutual friend/acquaintance, but you and I will always be best friends for each other. I think it is because no one knows us like we do. As close as I was to my comrades there are things about me that they don't even know.

And you are actually correct about Kettering's program being intended for me to stay at my co-op employer after graduation. They have told me this before I graduated, and even their website says this.

SKD probably would take me back. Actually, several of the people their said that coming back there would be no problem. And believe me, there are times where I am very tempted to just pick up the phone and tell them that I want to return. I'm surprised I didn't do that a year ago. I also don't think that California, as good as it is, is the right place for me, so I am looking to relocate. We'll have to see how places like Schlumberjer work out.

I don't, however, see you as a deadbeat even though you dropped out of college. You have become one of the strongest people I know, and you actually inspire me to keep on trying, especially these past few months. I am proud that you are my sister and my best friend, which is why I tried so much to be professional when speaking about you as one of your character references. Congratulations on getting your new job!