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i'm not talking to my mom right now. i honestly can't remember the last time i've been this upset with her. but all of my life she's had a tendancy to get too involved with my life, as if she's living vicariously through me (which several people, like even my dad, have said she does), and she's really crossed the line this time. to make a long story short, she asked for aaron's email address so that she could send him an e-card for christams, and i gave it to her under the condition that she would email him a christmas card and nothing else. well, not to my surprise, she sent him more emails than that, and the most recent email she sent to him was completely inappropriate, and i'm mortified. seriously. she just has no concept of privacy, first of all, and she was talking to aaron about my relationship with cj, and said some things that weren't true, and then she talked about some aspects about our relationship that were really personal, and if anyone decides to tell aaron about, it should have been me, not my mom, who he doesn't even know. and then, she had the nerve to say that i had been moody lately, and told him that i was "pms-ing it". i cannot believe she actually said that. i mean, not only is that phrase really trashy, but it's way too much information, and boys get really weird about that sort of thing, and it's just completely inappropriate. ugh, i'm so unbelievably upset with her. i mean, this has actually been a problem in the past where her overinvolvement has chased boys away. i remember back in the day, she somehow got ahold of marty's email address, and emailed him... i later found out that she was one of the reasons that he broke up with me. and cj has mentioned before that he's almost broken up with me several times just because of my mom. now, given, that's not really a legit reason for breaking up with someone, it's still pretty damn shitty that her involvment in my personal life is causing problems. but i'm really really really pissed off at her, and if i were aaron, i know i would be really really uncomfortable reading that email that she sent him. and i'm also really pissed that she went behind my back, after i asked her not to, and emailed him. AND THEN, after we had an argument about it last night, and she said she wouldn't email him again, she did it AGAIN. she emailed aaron saying that she was in trouble with me and was completely playing the victim, even though she was the one completely at fault, and she made me sound like a complete bitch and everything. it was horrible. luckily she didn't type in his address properly, and it didn't send. but i'm seriously just mortified at the entire situation. i can't believe she's acting like this. and i will just lose it if she scares aaron off. i'm not comfortable with this situation at all, and i can't see him being comfortable with it either. fuuuuccckkk. i'm sooooooo ridiculously upset with her.