being a teenager is overrated.
I think it’s perfectly acceptable to stalk the guy who loves you on Twitter, especially when he talks about you at least once every 10 posts…
But I still feel guilty. Maybe it’s because I’m getting unfair access into his head. Even though I pretty much have assumed everything he’s said… Gah. I hate this.
He's been in love with me, from what I can gather, for over 6 years. Which isn't cool, since I haven't seen him in, like, 8. I know it's not real feelings. It's attachment. And it's unfair to him to think it's something more, and it's unfair to me to feel trapped and be the object of his affection, when he and I both deserve better. I can't date him because I know it'd just feed his obsession. Maybe I'm sounding mean; but this will be better than anything. Especially in the long run.
But why am I maybe going to the school with him for that band thing, on Thursday?
I guess because I am a sadist.
Aaron was right. I am crazy. And a bitch.
I wish saying "no" would be as easy for me as it was for other people...
(I pray that this makes sense. I can barely thing straight.)
But I still feel guilty. Maybe it’s because I’m getting unfair access into his head. Even though I pretty much have assumed everything he’s said… Gah. I hate this.
He's been in love with me, from what I can gather, for over 6 years. Which isn't cool, since I haven't seen him in, like, 8. I know it's not real feelings. It's attachment. And it's unfair to him to think it's something more, and it's unfair to me to feel trapped and be the object of his affection, when he and I both deserve better. I can't date him because I know it'd just feed his obsession. Maybe I'm sounding mean; but this will be better than anything. Especially in the long run.
But why am I maybe going to the school with him for that band thing, on Thursday?
I guess because I am a sadist.
Aaron was right. I am crazy. And a bitch.
I wish saying "no" would be as easy for me as it was for other people...
(I pray that this makes sense. I can barely thing straight.)