"Happiness is not for keeping. Happiness is not my goal."

Oct 08, 2006 23:07

Well. Yes, this is the gratuitous, "I am still alive" post. Thought you'd like a piece of that ( Read more... )

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susannah October 8 2006, 14:24:46 UTC
Sounds like you've cleared your mind, set a few targets, and there's a tone of determination and positive attitude tucked in there somewhere! Hope the next few weeks go well, Erin.

Therapy - often sooo useful. Years ago my pride would never have let me. I used to think it was for weird people. Now I understand that it's a brilliant tool for normal people. I've found it really enlightening at times and helpful. Depends on the therapist I suppose, but go for it!

Time for action - and, yes, get stocked up with those late-night treats for when you're working on assignments. I find I can set myself a good two-hour session of work, knowing that I'll treat myself when I hit the two-hour mark... before pressing on again.

Erin: She has the brain. She has the objectives. She has the resolve. She may not have the hunky guy down the road, but then again, for the next few weeks, that's an advantage.

She has loads of shit. Other people can see that. She should accept the strengths that other people see in her. Now - time to move up a gear?

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cabaiste84 October 9 2006, 10:35:38 UTC
Aw, your comments always make me smile. :)

Did you end up seeing a Christian therapist? See, I'm on the look-out for a decent Christian counsellor- cos I can't deny that my faith is a massive part of who I am, and I need someone who is going to give me some good spiritual counsel. However, I'm a little anxious that I'll end up with someone overly judgemental, y'know how it goes. Or someone with a stuffy attitude towards mental health issues. What was your experience like?

Yeah, I just thought it'd be a good idea to talk through some crap. Cos it's not been an easy year by any means.

Erin: She has the brain. She has the objectives. She has the resolve. She may not have the hunky guy down the road, but then again, for the next few weeks, that's an advantage.Yes. And Erin also has a lazy and sluggish streak, gets distracted easily, and has a few apathy and cynicism issues. This will be interesting ( ... )

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susannah October 9 2006, 22:17:09 UTC
No he wasn't a christian but I took that into account in the things he said. The important thing for me wasn't his spiritual insights but his ability to really listen, identify issues, and ask questions that were designed to help me understand my own psychology a bit better ( ... )

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cabaiste84 October 11 2006, 08:08:36 UTC
So I'm kind of longing to incite the psych and get some kind of emotional response, and he's like... hmmm... yesss... interesting... carry on...

Uh-huh. I once went to see one of the free counsellors at our Student Health centre back in my first year of Uni, back when I was having serious issues with my self image, and I was practically screaming at the woman about how I hated my ex-boyfriend (yes, I know it sounds naff. Long story)...and she's just sitting there, smiling slightly, nodding away like one of those dog's you see in car windows, humming sympathetically. And I'm like, MAKE IT STOP!!! JUST GIVE ME ANSWERS!!! BLOODY WELL SAY SOMETHING!!!

Yeah.

Things with the family are better today, so I think the prayers worked! Thankee muchly. What would you say your main "love language" is. Me, I am most definitely Words of Affirmation. Give me one measley little compliment and I'm spinning out for days! Physical Touch and Quality Time are tied for second place. But what about you?

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susannah October 11 2006, 19:22:45 UTC
Hey I'm glad things were better today. You deserve nice things and happiness.

My main "love language"?

I think people showing gentle kindness means a lot to me, in the way they speak, and the love behind the gentleness.

Hugs are enormous. A huge emotional need. I need to feel held and safe.

When people relax around me and laugh and are just happy in my company, that can be a kind of "love language" too.

Holding hands and feeling happy being with someone.

Sexuality is a love language too, isn't it, because it can be a kind of givenness.

And people who make the effort to listen and understand.

Of course, sometimes just because people take the trouble to do practical things for me. That signals love too.

Hmmm... interesting question, Erin

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