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WELL this here is my last entry.....so sad to say. This journal has caused me more pain then pleasure. unfortunately. i figured i would recap my week then say my farewells. ill separate the two so you dont have to read everything. here we go:
Thanksgiving Holidays:
Well i arrived on Sun. and i got to see my bro.'s play....Sleeping Beauty. im not much for the story but it was a great show. its so good to know that i have someone following my footsteps. hehe. whether that be good or bad.
I also go to hang out with my good friend jimmy who has been going through some troubles.....but ill try my best to fix them. although theyre not mine.
And i hung out with Craig and Josh the entire three days. they were amazing....it felt like old times back in 9TH GRADE!!!! geez...its taken them that long to come back to me. oh well...at least theyre back...damn g/fs!!!!
we went to Best Buy and Andrettis....almost got josh into trouble with the DAD....wow i have a big mouth.
TUES-...i hung out with them at the voting precincts....that was.....hhmmmm.....interesting??? so much for never chasing a ball across the road....hehe.
then i went to bed at 6pm that night cause i had a headache. unfortunately i missed matt's call....but thing are better now...i slept 14 hrs....thats amazing!! now back to school. MON-... oh yeah i saw some friends at school and i saw pilgrim....he has lost 90 LBS!!! yay for diabetes???? naw.
tuesday night josh and craig took me out ot eat....that was really good...and i went to sleep around midnight.
WED-.....i drove home to V-TOWN...where i met matt and we drove to his parents house in orlando. we hung out there and played a lot of magic....josh would like that one.
THURS-..... had a wonderful meal....
FRI-...went to Epcot with matt. had a GREAT time. he was so sweet and i felt/feel so happy....we took pics. we saw the illuminations show....AND...IT WAS FREEZING!!! how wierd. We left for home fri. night amd drove back to valdosta. now im here waiting in the library for everyone to get back to college.
Now for "THE FAREWELL":
Everybody....i have had a great time sharing my emotions and reading as others shared their own. i love responding to people over the net. its interesting. i know here i can be anyone i want to be. just like acting. thats what i love so much about theatre. if i dont like me today...i can be someone else tomorrow.
well...like i said b4, this journal has caused me a lot of pain and agony between me and some i love very much. im willing to give this up so i can be more intimate and open to the one im suppose to be. We had the entire week to be together, and i only grew to love him even more. the late nights we had laying together on the couch watching leno....i felt like i was growing old with him. i love him sooooo much and it hurts me to see what i did to us 2 months ago.....so now i am trying to repair us. i know ill be with him for days, months, and possibly years to come. i love him that much. i can see my self 70yrs old with him. he treats me like i am a brittle piece of glass waiting to fall and break. and he doesnt want that to happen. he holds me close and kisses my forehead and says "i love you babe". that is the kind of person i want to be with. that is the kind of person i have. that is the kind of person that i wont give up. so for him and for me, i say farewell to thee. i love you all and thanks for listening to all of my thoughts. Adieu!
Thanksgiving Holidays:
Well i arrived on Sun. and i got to see my bro.'s play....Sleeping Beauty. im not much for the story but it was a great show. its so good to know that i have someone following my footsteps. hehe. whether that be good or bad.
I also go to hang out with my good friend jimmy who has been going through some troubles.....but ill try my best to fix them. although theyre not mine.
And i hung out with Craig and Josh the entire three days. they were amazing....it felt like old times back in 9TH GRADE!!!! geez...its taken them that long to come back to me. oh well...at least theyre back...damn g/fs!!!!
we went to Best Buy and Andrettis....almost got josh into trouble with the DAD....wow i have a big mouth.
TUES-...i hung out with them at the voting precincts....that was.....hhmmmm.....interesting??? so much for never chasing a ball across the road....hehe.
then i went to bed at 6pm that night cause i had a headache. unfortunately i missed matt's call....but thing are better now...i slept 14 hrs....thats amazing!! now back to school. MON-... oh yeah i saw some friends at school and i saw pilgrim....he has lost 90 LBS!!! yay for diabetes???? naw.
tuesday night josh and craig took me out ot eat....that was really good...and i went to sleep around midnight.
WED-.....i drove home to V-TOWN...where i met matt and we drove to his parents house in orlando. we hung out there and played a lot of magic....josh would like that one.
THURS-..... had a wonderful meal....
FRI-...went to Epcot with matt. had a GREAT time. he was so sweet and i felt/feel so happy....we took pics. we saw the illuminations show....AND...IT WAS FREEZING!!! how wierd. We left for home fri. night amd drove back to valdosta. now im here waiting in the library for everyone to get back to college.
Now for "THE FAREWELL":
Everybody....i have had a great time sharing my emotions and reading as others shared their own. i love responding to people over the net. its interesting. i know here i can be anyone i want to be. just like acting. thats what i love so much about theatre. if i dont like me today...i can be someone else tomorrow.
well...like i said b4, this journal has caused me a lot of pain and agony between me and some i love very much. im willing to give this up so i can be more intimate and open to the one im suppose to be. We had the entire week to be together, and i only grew to love him even more. the late nights we had laying together on the couch watching leno....i felt like i was growing old with him. i love him sooooo much and it hurts me to see what i did to us 2 months ago.....so now i am trying to repair us. i know ill be with him for days, months, and possibly years to come. i love him that much. i can see my self 70yrs old with him. he treats me like i am a brittle piece of glass waiting to fall and break. and he doesnt want that to happen. he holds me close and kisses my forehead and says "i love you babe". that is the kind of person i want to be with. that is the kind of person i have. that is the kind of person that i wont give up. so for him and for me, i say farewell to thee. i love you all and thanks for listening to all of my thoughts. Adieu!