what are my dreams telling me?
Woke up today after having yet another 'real' dream about my ex-chris. this dream was about actually running into him in real life- and this time i felt nervous but relieved because after all this time i would have some closure. Itended up that he lived in an area where i hung out, and i thought i ironic it was that i had never seen him before!! The setting takes place in an area of London (england), though it was canada. After i ran into him, he was really nice, and we were kinda flirty together. we went somewhere tohave lunch. i remember touching his shoulder as i walked past him. then ilooked up to see my mom and brother. they were sitting at the table with us. i made a comment to him that ' great, only when i want to keep something secret does someone find out!", then winked at him! he liked it. While we ate, we didnt say much, though tons of thoughts were scrambling through my head. We walked back to his apartment, then he had to pick up something before going in. he told me to go ahead and he would be right there. i walked intothe tiniest, dirtiest, darkest apartment. it was such a 'man's' place! it looked like he had just moved in and done nothing with it!! i was shocked that he lived here, but also hapy that it didnt look like he was all that and then some. Then i remember walking with himdown the street and my brain reminding me that he was probably married!! i had forgotten all about it!! i wanted to forget it, but knew i couldnt. suddenly, up walks this girl with fantastic thick dark red hair, a little short, but really cute. she has a smile on her face and shakes my hand. chris mumbles something about who she is, then walks away. i get stuck sitting with her. she turns to me really happily and says she's heard so much about me!!!! i think to myself, she shouldnt trust me at all!!!