my strange dream...
i dreamt about running into my exboyfriend, chris (of 6 years previously). it was fri or sat. of this wknd, and i knew i had a date with ryan- the boy im actually going on a date with today. when i saw chris, we hit it off immediately....even though we knew time had passed. we hung out and he took me ice skating. i looked at the clock and it was 2pm already, yet i knew ryan was suposed to call me by 11am! i hadnt told chris that i was going on the date yet. we even became really close and gave each other loving kisses on our foreheads and faces, without even questioning it- it just seemed right. it was so great to be in his arms. i even remember putting my arms around his waist and noticing how much thinner and muscular he was. he was sexy.
so at a certain point we were in a grocery store and he turned to me and asked if i wanted to sleepover that night. (i think it ws sat.). i paused, knowing i should tell him about my date with ryan, but knowing he'd be upset. i told him that had plans. well, he knew exactly what that meant aned he looked pissed off and started to walk away. then he turned to me and he said : 'y'know corrie, we've finally found eachother again and i know ive been empty without you. you fill me up in a way that nooone can, and here;s our chance to start again. i know im ready and so are you...its perfect timing. we can make this work...." then he walked away.
I stood there in the grocery store holding a bag of milk, torn by my dilemma. i was REALLY happy to be with chris, and i knew he was right- i had never been right without him. finally, i was going to be complete now that we were together.. but i liked ryan, and the fact of calling him on the day and cancelling out date really bothereed me. 1. because he was really looking forward to it and 2. if it didnt work out with chris for some reason, i might be missing my chance with ryan. u stood there and pondered lying to ryan to say someone in my family had had an accident, but changed my mine. i wanted to be honest and knew he would appreciate that. i walked out of the store, numb, trying to follow chris and tell him that we could be together. it felt so good to know that! i searched for him in the parking lot, since i didnt know what kind of car he drove- it had been years since we saw eachother- and then he drove by me with his windows down, a smile on his face and he was driving a blue civic- just like the one i own! he was teasing me by driving around the building. so i had to cut through a restaurant to try and get to him. i ran through these people and then i had to get through these doors till i could finally get through to the other side.(obstacles?) when i came out he wasnt there, and i had so many emotions....i finally woke up and it took a long while to realise that it ws only a dream..... (ryan just called but i havent picked up the phone cause i needed to get this down and out of my head). damn- it was SO real!
so at a certain point we were in a grocery store and he turned to me and asked if i wanted to sleepover that night. (i think it ws sat.). i paused, knowing i should tell him about my date with ryan, but knowing he'd be upset. i told him that had plans. well, he knew exactly what that meant aned he looked pissed off and started to walk away. then he turned to me and he said : 'y'know corrie, we've finally found eachother again and i know ive been empty without you. you fill me up in a way that nooone can, and here;s our chance to start again. i know im ready and so are you...its perfect timing. we can make this work...." then he walked away.
I stood there in the grocery store holding a bag of milk, torn by my dilemma. i was REALLY happy to be with chris, and i knew he was right- i had never been right without him. finally, i was going to be complete now that we were together.. but i liked ryan, and the fact of calling him on the day and cancelling out date really bothereed me. 1. because he was really looking forward to it and 2. if it didnt work out with chris for some reason, i might be missing my chance with ryan. u stood there and pondered lying to ryan to say someone in my family had had an accident, but changed my mine. i wanted to be honest and knew he would appreciate that. i walked out of the store, numb, trying to follow chris and tell him that we could be together. it felt so good to know that! i searched for him in the parking lot, since i didnt know what kind of car he drove- it had been years since we saw eachother- and then he drove by me with his windows down, a smile on his face and he was driving a blue civic- just like the one i own! he was teasing me by driving around the building. so i had to cut through a restaurant to try and get to him. i ran through these people and then i had to get through these doors till i could finally get through to the other side.(obstacles?) when i came out he wasnt there, and i had so many emotions....i finally woke up and it took a long while to realise that it ws only a dream..... (ryan just called but i havent picked up the phone cause i needed to get this down and out of my head). damn- it was SO real!