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[c_thebeauty_nme]

No big deal
do you really even mean anything
nope
of course not
you do to him
so why would you think this
because yourstuck
and you wont get out
because you
wont tell him anything
because your no ones problem
your not his problem
hes got his own things to worry about
so why should he have to worry about you
why should anyone worry
why should anyone care
you deal with yours
so you don't bother anyone else
it's no biggy
don't ask for help
you think to yourself
this is what you have to show everyone
this is what people willread to understand you
but they don't
because in the morning you'lll be fine
you have him
but you don't show him how much you need him
because anyone you have shown
has realized they are in too deep
and they can't deal
so they leave
don't fuck it up
like you do everything else
does your dad really care when you tell him you did one more thing
hurt yourself in the process
hurt everyone in the process
just to make him proud
nope
but you still have someone who loves you
why can't you just open up and tell him
I don't even know
what should I say?
what should I explain?
will he understand
who cares anymore
off to bed with you now
so you can have those nightmares you do
but you'll get over it
because you have nothing to show
and nothing to prove...