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fuck

i'm feeling so weird. like i either want to go kill myself, sleep forever, or fly.

i realized how much of what i say is automatic, and has no real feeling. like, i can be so fake and not even notice. it's scary. my dad took some photos of me today.

i've never been so:
-disappointed
-independent
-at peace
-stressed
-empty
-overhwelmed
-underwhelmed
-worried
-inspired
-bored with life

i want to go dancing.
i want to kiss someone. anyone.
i want to scream at the top of my lungs.
i want to apologize.
i want to explain.
i want to be free from myself and responsibility.
i want to do soemthing productive.
i want to achieve dreams i have yet to dream.
i want to have a life changing experience.
i want to be more alive, and honest, every day.