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well im currently unemployed, not having money realy sux ass but being out of that shit hole i feel like i can breath again,for all that dont know i was working at a strip joint for 8 mounths and being there was bringing me down so so far down and it was making me hate men more than i already did. i seen what it was doing to me and even though i need a car and had a years lease i needed to get the fuck out of there, it got to the point were i NEEDED a few drinks befor i even steped in that place
so im staying with my mom and dad again. no more parties :( the last party i did have i put my fist through 2 windows, and slashed 3 and maby more tendens in my right mother fucking arm it sucks i have to learn how to masterbait with my left arm, its kinda funny though cuz when my arm is not in the cast, it flops around like a limp dick, its cute :)
i havnt drank since that night which is good cuz it seems every time i get drunk any more i get violent, maby this is my wake up call, note to partiers: when you sober up and your in the hospital bed restrained and need surgery, stop drinking.
they wanted to put me in the phych ward, i talked them out of it though ha ha ha those cunts. They just want to lock you in a room and hope you get better. i wanted to go to school and be a coroner so i could get away from the living, but asswholes need help too. sad but true. so i would like to look into something were you help people so they are happy again and not have to be an asswhole. i dont know exactly what profession yet, but im working on what i like in that manner.
i useualy dont open up like this but im sick of liveing in my screaming shell, hence the name c_shell, so im taking baby steps and breaking out slowly and im doing it with showing myself to the world, online internet here i am, HERE I AM. plus i have no car, no job and im stuck with my family all day, i get board off my ass.
whatever. as the clock spins.
so im staying with my mom and dad again. no more parties :( the last party i did have i put my fist through 2 windows, and slashed 3 and maby more tendens in my right mother fucking arm it sucks i have to learn how to masterbait with my left arm, its kinda funny though cuz when my arm is not in the cast, it flops around like a limp dick, its cute :)
i havnt drank since that night which is good cuz it seems every time i get drunk any more i get violent, maby this is my wake up call, note to partiers: when you sober up and your in the hospital bed restrained and need surgery, stop drinking.
they wanted to put me in the phych ward, i talked them out of it though ha ha ha those cunts. They just want to lock you in a room and hope you get better. i wanted to go to school and be a coroner so i could get away from the living, but asswholes need help too. sad but true. so i would like to look into something were you help people so they are happy again and not have to be an asswhole. i dont know exactly what profession yet, but im working on what i like in that manner.
i useualy dont open up like this but im sick of liveing in my screaming shell, hence the name c_shell, so im taking baby steps and breaking out slowly and im doing it with showing myself to the world, online internet here i am, HERE I AM. plus i have no car, no job and im stuck with my family all day, i get board off my ass.
whatever. as the clock spins.