Life is progressing...or so it seems...or so I would hope.

[c_rza]

Well, this is going to be slightly-well slightly isn't exa-aw fuck it, this shit is gonna be mad long. But if you have the time to sit down and read for a minute, please by all means do so. I would like in my own world to know that someone is mildly interested in me and concerned with my actual being. Other than it always being me caring for

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Re: speechless... well not really

[c_rza]

I hope you don't mean what I say Jasmine, because I don't have many friends, I don't have many people I can talk to. You know I value you as a person, as well as our friendship. So I even more so hope you don't mean that. As much as you've upset me in the past, I've never meant a harsh word to you. So what you've said fuckin hurts. but I don't know how much more you want me to explain...I only hope you can see where I'm coming from. That is the whole point of this, right? To see where I'm coming from. God, if you do know me like you say I do, You should know that I don't just outright attack anyone. And btw, I didn't aim to toast my cat jas, i did it for my mom because she loved that cat way more than I did. She wanted it done so I did it for her, Im so goddam sorry. God where do I get off? I'm so fucking sorry for being such a painful and disturbing friend for you jasmine. All I ever wanted was for shit to go right for me, as many downs i have come through. I'm so fucking sorry that I had to cut myself cuz I don't know what else to do, Im so fucking sorry that No i didn't think of calling anyone cuz i had that feeling that No one cared enough anyway to hear my problems or know what I was going through and to hear that much shit that i get cuz i can finally let out and let my voice down that everyone berates me and hates me and shit, so ya know what if you say hello say hello, you barely consort with me anyway...Let me officially feel and know that I have no one to fucking talk to let me officially know that everyone hates me jasmine go ahead, you might as well pull the fucking trigger on the gun that's next to my ehead cuz im pretty sure at the ratre im going at that i'd be surprised if i diont do it myself.