It's Been a While...Wouldn't You Say?...

[c_rza]

I can say right now that it's been a long time since I've looked at this journal nor left any entries. But I'm probably going to do this as brief and as contrite as possible. Work has been going well, my classes as few as they are, are going well, and my social life, well, it's ok, despite all the drunken stories I've been able to accumulate in

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Chris...

[ambermourning]

This is exactly why I haven't spoken to you. You contrive these clever little sob stories to make people feel sorry for you and then scold them for keeping their distance. Apparently, you've had this problem with quite a few people and not just myself, however I can only speak for myself, but perhaps it's time to start looking inwards rather than blaming everyone else for desserting you. The reason I asked Ziemba to invite you over was for the simple fact that I enjoy your company. You are a loyal, helpful, lovable kid when you're not wallowing in self-pity, and on occassion, rather pleasant to be around. The reason I did not call you myself, was because I have learned from my past mistakes. If I were to call you on my own, I would have gotten a long list of "Where have you been?'s" and the ever sarcastic "Nice to hear from you...'s" I didn't feel like putting myself through that and therefore asked Ziemba to invite you over, so that we could essentially start anew without having to rehash old drama. Unfortunetly, that wasn't possible. I realize that I am not very good at calling people back, or even calling them at all, but that does not mean I don't care. Ziemba, one of my very best, and oldest friends, has to call me a majority of the time to maintain our relationship, of course, at my own fault. I apologize that this is something I was never very capable of doing, however, my friends have made ammends with this and continue to try back after they've long exhausted my voice mail. I do remember that you did make one last attempt at getting a hold of me, at 4am on your way home from a bar. While the call was very much appreciated, which is why I answered at all at that late hour, it came at a very unfortunate time, as I was in the middle of having sex. Quite the mood killer. Anyway, the purpose of this was to tell you, and again, I only speak for myself, but I believe this goes for a few others, I would be much more willing to try and change my bad habits and continue and rebuild our relationship if you were just as willing to recognize and make the effort to change yours. And if not, then we, rather unfortunetly, stand at a crossroads.