I could be the drug, that you cant resisit
Lately Ive been feeling that things cant get any worse, but yet, at the same time, things couldnt be better.
I've been missing Mike like crazy lately....and I wish he was here so badly. I never thought Id ever have to feel this way. Now, almost 3 months later, things are getting a little easier, but things will never be easy or normal. I just have to try and make the best of everything, which somedays is really hard, but I think with the help of my friends and otehr family, I can manage. Uncle Lenny and my mom are writing a song for him...Its cool.
I met this guy through Kenny named Dave. Hes really cool, and is fun to hang out with. Hes pretty secretive though, but its cool because it keeps each day exciting becuase you never know what secret hes going to spill. And hes talking a lot more now, which is good...I think hes becoming more comfortable being around my friends and I. It makes me happy. Oh, and come to find out...he was a good friend of Mike's...how wierd?!
Kenny and I arent talking right now. Which bums me out, but i think it was for the best at the time. He did something that hurt pretty bad, but i guess its all good. And all I can do is be happy for him...but its hard becuase I like him so much. But I know that whatever is meant to be, will find its way. And for 2 years, we've liked each other, and shits happened, but in the end...everythings the same.
It does make things difficult though. Its like I cant get attached to anyone else and it sucks. But i think if i give it a little more time, everything will be fine, and i wont think about him as much.
There is this guy at work that I like....and of course, just my luck, he has a girlfriend. But they are taking a "break" from each other come June or July...lol. They've been together for like 4 years and it makes me sad for him, but at the same time im kind of exited becuase then maybe him and I can hang out mor elike we want to with out his gf getting mad...which i can completely understand.
Works been really good. I get so many more hours now...almost 40 a week. Im glad about that because i can use the extra money right now. Im a closer now...so I work 5 til close...which is like 1230...so come visit me!!
I really dont have anything else to update on, so ill talk to everyone later.
"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him. Its when he ignores you, and you still want him. Its when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you whane all you really do is cry and cry."