Fuck you all!
I hate my life...and everything about it.
I hate how I can never be happy about anything, and the way I have to think things out so much more than they should be thought out.
I hate the way the people I love the most, somehow end up hurting me the most.
I hate how every word I say has to piss someone off.
I hate how one little thing can scare the shit out of me and make me paranoid forever.
I hate how the guys i like the most never like me back.
I hate how I'm never satisfied with the way I look and I think down upon myslef all the time because I see prettier girls than me, and I know i'm not pretty.
I hate how I can never please anyone no matter how had I try.
I hate how all the people who claim to be my friends and be there no matter what, could actually care less if I died right here, right now.
I hate all of the pretenders in my life.
I hate how my family isnt even considered a family anymore because no one can get a long.
I hate how my mom always has to be right about anything, and if anyone proves her wrong, they are on her bad side for a very long time.
I hate how the people in my house think they can control every aspect of my life.
I hate how everyone has to have a say in everything I do, and God forbid I do something differently I get in trouble or looked down upon for making my own decisions.
I hate how I hate alot of things.
All I want is to be happy and not worry about what others think of me or waht they want me to do. I don't care to celebrate the holidays...I'd spend all of christmas day working if we were open. Things arent the same. Grandpa's not here, Grandmas not here, Chrissy, Mark, Timmy and Michael won't be here. Its basically just like another dinner, with a few extra people here.
I want to be satisfied with the way I look and compare to others. I want to know that I actually have friends that are there and do care, and not just say that they do. I'm so angry and hurt by everyone who has walked into my life to do nothing more than turn back around after destruction si done. I'm sick of all the lies from various people, and I'm tired of caring about people who who care less about me...and right now...honestly...I dont think I could name off one person who has been faithful to anything they've ever told me. I know people cant always stick to their word and what not, but at least try. I call, and I call, I leave messages yet no calls back or any sort of response. Nothing at all. I'm tired of this feeling of being lonely all the time or the feeling of abandonment to a certain point. I dont like how I always feel lik no matter hwat happens, its my fault somehow. I'm tired of everything. I want to die, and come back in a nother life, to start all oer again. I will be some body worth knowing and sad to say, bu truthfully, i wouldnt talkt o over half the people I do now. I'd have nothing to regret and I'd make my mistakes with out worrying what otehr think about it. And I defiantely wouldnt get so close to people so fast. Everything would be different. And I'd be happy with it.
So...I'd like to thank all of my so-called "Friends" for bascically nothing at all.
I hate how I can never be happy about anything, and the way I have to think things out so much more than they should be thought out.
I hate the way the people I love the most, somehow end up hurting me the most.
I hate how every word I say has to piss someone off.
I hate how one little thing can scare the shit out of me and make me paranoid forever.
I hate how the guys i like the most never like me back.
I hate how I'm never satisfied with the way I look and I think down upon myslef all the time because I see prettier girls than me, and I know i'm not pretty.
I hate how I can never please anyone no matter how had I try.
I hate how all the people who claim to be my friends and be there no matter what, could actually care less if I died right here, right now.
I hate all of the pretenders in my life.
I hate how my family isnt even considered a family anymore because no one can get a long.
I hate how my mom always has to be right about anything, and if anyone proves her wrong, they are on her bad side for a very long time.
I hate how the people in my house think they can control every aspect of my life.
I hate how everyone has to have a say in everything I do, and God forbid I do something differently I get in trouble or looked down upon for making my own decisions.
I hate how I hate alot of things.
All I want is to be happy and not worry about what others think of me or waht they want me to do. I don't care to celebrate the holidays...I'd spend all of christmas day working if we were open. Things arent the same. Grandpa's not here, Grandmas not here, Chrissy, Mark, Timmy and Michael won't be here. Its basically just like another dinner, with a few extra people here.
I want to be satisfied with the way I look and compare to others. I want to know that I actually have friends that are there and do care, and not just say that they do. I'm so angry and hurt by everyone who has walked into my life to do nothing more than turn back around after destruction si done. I'm sick of all the lies from various people, and I'm tired of caring about people who who care less about me...and right now...honestly...I dont think I could name off one person who has been faithful to anything they've ever told me. I know people cant always stick to their word and what not, but at least try. I call, and I call, I leave messages yet no calls back or any sort of response. Nothing at all. I'm tired of this feeling of being lonely all the time or the feeling of abandonment to a certain point. I dont like how I always feel lik no matter hwat happens, its my fault somehow. I'm tired of everything. I want to die, and come back in a nother life, to start all oer again. I will be some body worth knowing and sad to say, bu truthfully, i wouldnt talkt o over half the people I do now. I'd have nothing to regret and I'd make my mistakes with out worrying what otehr think about it. And I defiantely wouldnt get so close to people so fast. Everything would be different. And I'd be happy with it.
So...I'd like to thank all of my so-called "Friends" for bascically nothing at all.