My Last Words
I know that this has taken me, shaken me but has yet to fine-tune break me.
You’ve been the perfect magician with 96 tricks up your sleeve
So now I leave
And your lackadaisical attitude is really hard to believe.
You’ve taken all this lying down
In a soma induced comma
Drug after drug, beer after beer
And suddenly 30 days in rehab is supposed to erase two and a half years?
Blindsided, people ask me why and how could I?
And I smile and I have to understand
Because I had plans
And I was so good at hiding your immediate drug demands.
Closed doors were our best friend
And as I smiled thru a tear stained face
You just never could bother to comprehend
How my heart faded each and every time
I had to shake you and wake you from the dark side.
Holding your head up at night
Lifting your eye lids making sure there was a sign of life
Your breath reeking of vomit
Because your stomach never did get used to the drug torment.
And the brief moments you were there, aware
You lied over and over with eyes fixed in a stare.
Bold face and swearing it to be true
I now damn the fact that I never really knew you.
Now you tell me I’m crazy and I could be, just maybe
But never again will I let your promises phase me.
So sleep easy now that I’ve left you
Now that you can do what you do
and screw who you screw.
And no hard feelings,
I’ll live my life too
So go thrive with new life and
May peace be with you.
You’ve been the perfect magician with 96 tricks up your sleeve
So now I leave
And your lackadaisical attitude is really hard to believe.
You’ve taken all this lying down
In a soma induced comma
Drug after drug, beer after beer
And suddenly 30 days in rehab is supposed to erase two and a half years?
Blindsided, people ask me why and how could I?
And I smile and I have to understand
Because I had plans
And I was so good at hiding your immediate drug demands.
Closed doors were our best friend
And as I smiled thru a tear stained face
You just never could bother to comprehend
How my heart faded each and every time
I had to shake you and wake you from the dark side.
Holding your head up at night
Lifting your eye lids making sure there was a sign of life
Your breath reeking of vomit
Because your stomach never did get used to the drug torment.
And the brief moments you were there, aware
You lied over and over with eyes fixed in a stare.
Bold face and swearing it to be true
I now damn the fact that I never really knew you.
Now you tell me I’m crazy and I could be, just maybe
But never again will I let your promises phase me.
So sleep easy now that I’ve left you
Now that you can do what you do
and screw who you screw.
And no hard feelings,
I’ll live my life too
So go thrive with new life and
May peace be with you.