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Every time I feel like I'm finally getting my feet back under me, something happens to knock me back down.
I am pretty well irrevocably in love with a guy who won't give me the time of day unless he can't get any at the moment. As soon as somebody comes along, he drops me like I mean nothing.
How sad am I that I let him pick me back up every time?
A constant stream of failed relationships that somehow always seems to be my fault has really left my self-esteem in the dirt. I have moments of depression where I just...I want to feel validated. Like I actually matter to someone.
I have moments where I wonder...why am I even here? I'm three weeks from 22, living with my parents, stuck at a crossroads in school. What is my worth?
When will I matter?
In two months, I fell harder for him than two years with my ex. I hate that I mean so little to him. Every morning that I woke up to a text from him made the whole day seem better. Every day that we don't speak feels like blades in my heart.
I can't keep doing this to myself. The line has to be drawn somewhere, even if it's just in sand.
I am pretty well irrevocably in love with a guy who won't give me the time of day unless he can't get any at the moment. As soon as somebody comes along, he drops me like I mean nothing.
How sad am I that I let him pick me back up every time?
A constant stream of failed relationships that somehow always seems to be my fault has really left my self-esteem in the dirt. I have moments of depression where I just...I want to feel validated. Like I actually matter to someone.
I have moments where I wonder...why am I even here? I'm three weeks from 22, living with my parents, stuck at a crossroads in school. What is my worth?
When will I matter?
In two months, I fell harder for him than two years with my ex. I hate that I mean so little to him. Every morning that I woke up to a text from him made the whole day seem better. Every day that we don't speak feels like blades in my heart.
I can't keep doing this to myself. The line has to be drawn somewhere, even if it's just in sand.