giving up on loving you
well prom is tonight and larons going to be out fucking his girlfriend while i will be at the races all by myself with a few random hot guys every now and again and it just makes me sick knowing what hes gonna do tonight...i just dont even know why i like love him so much..it just doesnt make any sense and ive decided im moving on yes i am...well it just seemed like a nice thing to say but i know i wont be able to move on...:( and in my last entry what lindsay said to me really made me think and im to young for all this drama and crap that im putting up with and im wasting my good life on a piece of shit who is gonna be a walking STD by the age of 20...and now taht i think about it at first i was sad about not being able to have things with him but now i am actually happy i can wait until i find someone worth taking that risk with and not having to worry about being on my own and having noone ever there .....i really thank lindsay for what she said it meant ALOT to me and it made me relize its just not worth it...none of this is