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Don't be mad at me. Don't hate me. Don't yell at me. Please don't hate me. I am going to try to explain as best I can why this happened. It won't be easy but I will try. I am not very good at expressing my feelings. Especially romantic feelings. But I will try. Let me first start off by saying that I love you. I love you so much. You know that Kelly. You know that I love you more than anything in the world. But I can't give you what you want right now.
So much is happening in my life right now. I have my career to think of, the show takes up all of my time, and the free time that I do have is spent sleeping. I don't want you to feel that I've lost interest. Instead of growing apart and then breaking up without actually breaking up I figured I would break it off now. Give it a nice clean swipe away. Because you deserve more than that Kelly. You deserve more than just a once a week visit and a once a week boyfriend. I can't be there for you right now. I can't be there for you as much as I want to be.
There were times where I picked up the phone and tried to dial your number and I just couldn't. I tried so many times. I couldn't do that to you. I know I've hurt you so much and that's what's killing me right now. I never meant to hurt you. I wish I could do something to help but I don't think I can do anything right now. I'm sorry sorry that you are mad and hurt and upset and I feel so horrible that I can't do anything about it. I feel so helpless. So very helpless. It kills me. It really kills me inside. I haven't smiled since I broke up with you. I think that means something. I need you in my life. I need you to be in my life whether it's love or friendship. I need you.
You deserve someone who will always be there for you every day instead of just when he has time off from his more than busy schedual. I want to be there for you. I want to give you everything you want in a relationship and everything that you've always wanted. But right now I just can't. I just can't right now. I have the show and practices and performances and public appearances and promotions and interviews and it is all happening so fast. You deserve better Kelly. I'll never stop thinking about you. I'll never stop caring for you. I'll never stop loving you. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
So much is happening in my life right now. I have my career to think of, the show takes up all of my time, and the free time that I do have is spent sleeping. I don't want you to feel that I've lost interest. Instead of growing apart and then breaking up without actually breaking up I figured I would break it off now. Give it a nice clean swipe away. Because you deserve more than that Kelly. You deserve more than just a once a week visit and a once a week boyfriend. I can't be there for you right now. I can't be there for you as much as I want to be.
There were times where I picked up the phone and tried to dial your number and I just couldn't. I tried so many times. I couldn't do that to you. I know I've hurt you so much and that's what's killing me right now. I never meant to hurt you. I wish I could do something to help but I don't think I can do anything right now. I'm sorry sorry that you are mad and hurt and upset and I feel so horrible that I can't do anything about it. I feel so helpless. So very helpless. It kills me. It really kills me inside. I haven't smiled since I broke up with you. I think that means something. I need you in my life. I need you to be in my life whether it's love or friendship. I need you.
You deserve someone who will always be there for you every day instead of just when he has time off from his more than busy schedual. I want to be there for you. I want to give you everything you want in a relationship and everything that you've always wanted. But right now I just can't. I just can't right now. I have the show and practices and performances and public appearances and promotions and interviews and it is all happening so fast. You deserve better Kelly. I'll never stop thinking about you. I'll never stop caring for you. I'll never stop loving you. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.