ello
Well, whats goin on out there in the world of yall? not a whole lot with me...i talked to madison today for a lil bit, man my head hurts really bad right now...uhh lets see...had a boring week, Sara W. got up in my face at the beginning of the week...lucky for her i controlled myself...my little brother got poped in the face today on the school bus by some older kid...hes got a black eye and that pisses me off....my little cousin sean and my brother were singing the song gold digger earlier it was really cute...and today is our 1 year anny with Koda (we got him a year ago today)
uhh well earlier my mom and i were going to take my sister to her little dance thing and she told me about her friend thats in the hospital...the same hospital that killed my grandpa! theyre treating her friend the same way they treated my grandpa...like shit...they didnt sew up her leg after she had surgery...and my mom feels kinda sad because she wants to go see her but she wouldnt be able to go into the hospital...its been a while since ive felt sad about missing him...havent really been upset about it since may...but now after talking about it im down...it angers me so much that a hospital could do that to a person...just stand by and let them die...it angers me that so many ppl go there and expect to live...but dont...and it angers me most of all that hes not here anymore...god i miss him so much...i was doing so good without breaking but now...ive broke...i guess thats what happens when i talk bout him....what sucks even more its the holidays...so that means im gunna miss him even more...that feeling of guilt keeps coming back...his face keeps popping into my head...i can hear his voice...and the pain is back..i know i know i cant change whats happened and all i can do is continue to take it a step at a time...but sometimes its just so hard...i thought it would be easier this far down the road...but i guess i was wrong...argh i gotta go...i have to find something to do or someone to talk to...i need aj
uhh well earlier my mom and i were going to take my sister to her little dance thing and she told me about her friend thats in the hospital...the same hospital that killed my grandpa! theyre treating her friend the same way they treated my grandpa...like shit...they didnt sew up her leg after she had surgery...and my mom feels kinda sad because she wants to go see her but she wouldnt be able to go into the hospital...its been a while since ive felt sad about missing him...havent really been upset about it since may...but now after talking about it im down...it angers me so much that a hospital could do that to a person...just stand by and let them die...it angers me that so many ppl go there and expect to live...but dont...and it angers me most of all that hes not here anymore...god i miss him so much...i was doing so good without breaking but now...ive broke...i guess thats what happens when i talk bout him....what sucks even more its the holidays...so that means im gunna miss him even more...that feeling of guilt keeps coming back...his face keeps popping into my head...i can hear his voice...and the pain is back..i know i know i cant change whats happened and all i can do is continue to take it a step at a time...but sometimes its just so hard...i thought it would be easier this far down the road...but i guess i was wrong...argh i gotta go...i have to find something to do or someone to talk to...i need aj