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I am not depressed, emo, sad, distraught, or boohooing. I am simply musing and my tone sometimes leans to melodrama. Do forgive me. I really cannot phrase certain things un-dramatically. 'tis sad
Retrospect is a trip. Looking back removes all the glamor and sparkle that seemed to surround things when you were living them-it reduces the world into black and white, done and not done, success and failure, small-spirited and noble. It makes you see people as just that, people, with stupidities and blindnesses and flaws-not the confident, sure demi-gods they seem like sometimes. And you realize with some surety that in a way you had invented them for yourself, that you had perfected them so that they would be as you wanted. And then, when you look back, or when the fog clears, you wonder why you ever thought they were wonderful.
The one cheering thing about all of this is, that unless you tell them, they will never know. It is the most heartening moral I can dredge out of all that.
Retrospect is a trip. Looking back removes all the glamor and sparkle that seemed to surround things when you were living them-it reduces the world into black and white, done and not done, success and failure, small-spirited and noble. It makes you see people as just that, people, with stupidities and blindnesses and flaws-not the confident, sure demi-gods they seem like sometimes. And you realize with some surety that in a way you had invented them for yourself, that you had perfected them so that they would be as you wanted. And then, when you look back, or when the fog clears, you wonder why you ever thought they were wonderful.
The one cheering thing about all of this is, that unless you tell them, they will never know. It is the most heartening moral I can dredge out of all that.