Oh My
So today is officially school for me. I only had one class to attend, but it sure feels like I have five or more classloads worth of work. I have a feeling that this semester is going to be stressful. I need to drop two classes and add two classes. This means I have to talk to the profs, hope I get it, return books, and buy books. Good thing I don't worry myself with balancing my checkbook... Speaking of which, the girl at Spartan Bookstore almost charged me twice for a $102 book. "$257 is your total." I second guessed myself because I don't like to accuse people of doing their jobs wrong.
Whenever this time of the year rolls around I feel that I need to be uber-organized. I bust out my organizer, hit the books, and listen attentively for two weeks or more. After that I realize I don't need to be that anal about class so I become lazy; and it seems as though my laziness has grown each year I have been a student. But one thing I've noticed is that I'm freaking out on the inside more than usual this year. I keep questioning if I'm taking the right classes, if I'm in the right classroom, if the class is going to be too hard, if I should just drop this whole thing and take it easy for a semester. And I think it's only going to get worse as I get closer to graduating. God only knows how I'll act when I get an actual job; how much I'll freak out that first week.
I was thinking that maybe the reason I become so organized is so that I can have a buffer for later. I don't like catching up. Worst thing to do with responsibilty, in my opinion. But I like relaxing, knowing I don't need to do as much as those people who are playing catch-up (or worse, those psycho students who freak if they aren't in the top fifth percentile of their class).
The thing that gets me is how jarring the first week of classes are to me. I drop everything to concentrate and make sure it starts out well. And I was just getting used to being laid back and not worrying so much about deadlines. Oh yeah, and there's taxes and registration and other shit to worry about too. :/
Edit: It's funny reading this, because I know that I'm really not like that on the outside. I know I will still put things off and play RPGs and hang out 'till 2 or 3 in the morning despite classes the next morning.
Whenever this time of the year rolls around I feel that I need to be uber-organized. I bust out my organizer, hit the books, and listen attentively for two weeks or more. After that I realize I don't need to be that anal about class so I become lazy; and it seems as though my laziness has grown each year I have been a student. But one thing I've noticed is that I'm freaking out on the inside more than usual this year. I keep questioning if I'm taking the right classes, if I'm in the right classroom, if the class is going to be too hard, if I should just drop this whole thing and take it easy for a semester. And I think it's only going to get worse as I get closer to graduating. God only knows how I'll act when I get an actual job; how much I'll freak out that first week.
I was thinking that maybe the reason I become so organized is so that I can have a buffer for later. I don't like catching up. Worst thing to do with responsibilty, in my opinion. But I like relaxing, knowing I don't need to do as much as those people who are playing catch-up (or worse, those psycho students who freak if they aren't in the top fifth percentile of their class).
The thing that gets me is how jarring the first week of classes are to me. I drop everything to concentrate and make sure it starts out well. And I was just getting used to being laid back and not worrying so much about deadlines. Oh yeah, and there's taxes and registration and other shit to worry about too. :/
Edit: It's funny reading this, because I know that I'm really not like that on the outside. I know I will still put things off and play RPGs and hang out 'till 2 or 3 in the morning despite classes the next morning.