*sigh*
so
he's leaving...
as soon as the ground is frozen he is gone...3 weeks there,one week back and so on for 6 months
fort mcmurray,alberta...on an oil rig,doing high paying but highly dangerous work.far.far.away.
and then i will be almost entirely alone
thank god for samantha and luke
he's not even leaving yet and im already waiting for him to come back.its just,it doesn't seem fair.i know that in the long run,at the end of the day,etc, its best for us.
but it still hurts to know that we will be apart.
i love him.so.much.
he is so loving and caring and gorgeous and he is just everything i want and need in life.he understands me...i think about asking him something and he answers before it comes out...
im going to be so lonely.im going to miss him so much.
but im staying right here,waiting for him to come back.everything is going to be fine,we're gunna make it and then when he comes back...good things are happening.im just not telling what,yet...
its the waiting that will be torture
how am i taking it,jon asked...not well,i feel crushed,heartbroken,devastated,afraid,uneasy and just plain upset
just when im being accepted into his family,and him into mine...
but this is,without a doubt,a good test.not a happy fluffy,rainbows and butterflies good...but good as in solid.
if we can make it through this...
we're going to make it through anything
he's leaving...
as soon as the ground is frozen he is gone...3 weeks there,one week back and so on for 6 months
fort mcmurray,alberta...on an oil rig,doing high paying but highly dangerous work.far.far.away.
and then i will be almost entirely alone
thank god for samantha and luke
he's not even leaving yet and im already waiting for him to come back.its just,it doesn't seem fair.i know that in the long run,at the end of the day,etc, its best for us.
but it still hurts to know that we will be apart.
i love him.so.much.
he is so loving and caring and gorgeous and he is just everything i want and need in life.he understands me...i think about asking him something and he answers before it comes out...
im going to be so lonely.im going to miss him so much.
but im staying right here,waiting for him to come back.everything is going to be fine,we're gunna make it and then when he comes back...good things are happening.im just not telling what,yet...
its the waiting that will be torture
how am i taking it,jon asked...not well,i feel crushed,heartbroken,devastated,afraid,uneasy and just plain upset
just when im being accepted into his family,and him into mine...
but this is,without a doubt,a good test.not a happy fluffy,rainbows and butterflies good...but good as in solid.
if we can make it through this...
we're going to make it through anything