*undone*

[c1r9a8z7y]

everything has been going so good. tonight i was out and on my way home i saw the imperfectness of this world. I can even begin to purge these feelings of repent. I don't have a date to my jr. prom and cant get1. i have this feeling of dipair and dicuragement that i could be something great. my motivations is sinking along with my hopes and dreams of being happy. i always used to have fun. it was like a never ending mystical dream that was brought to the most screaching halt. i don't know where to go for help because ever1 has something better than me and what i want. im falling and loosing contact with all that surrounds me. i want to care so badly but i can't find it in me. tomorrow i clean then i work then i play then i go to court, that should be nice. im so lost...i need to go to bed. im afraid of the future, i will update when things shape up, i can't handle this.
(shine on u crazy dimond)
~Rae~