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Hate is a pseudo-feeling to me. I spout it out like nobody's business. I don't know why, exactly. It amuses me greatly.
I hate so many tv shows. I hate the people who write them and the mindset that it must require. I hate the idea that the show isn't so much born as it is pitched. The show is an advertisement of itself.
But I don't really hate any of it. I'm fascinated by it. I'm fascinated by us, by humanity. Both by how I'm apart of it and how I feel separate from it. It can be applied to so many other facets, but our current obsession with entertainment seems to be the most appropriate way to express how I feel towards existence in general.
I'm not making much sense, I know.
I always joke about how I feel old. I truly feel that way, to some extent. Right now... I feel like I'm on my way out. I'm not afraid, and I'm not sad, and it's not just because I know it's unlikely. I'm simply alright with it. It feels like I've innately accepted it.
No, don't react like I'm threatening suicide. I'd never do anything so silly. I simply feel like I wouldn't be surprised if a pinless grenade were to land in my lap right now.
Maybe this is morbid, but I don't much care.
For all my cynicism, I love this world. I love its denizens. I love YOU. I've been insufficient in expressing it, I haven't awarded attention or affection to anyone as much as they deserve, especially some, but it does exist. In spades.
This is all so very odd. So very puzzling. So very amusing. So very pleasant.
Whether I've got a hundred seconds or a hundred years left in my life, I'll enjoy as much of it as I can. See ya'll around.
I hate so many tv shows. I hate the people who write them and the mindset that it must require. I hate the idea that the show isn't so much born as it is pitched. The show is an advertisement of itself.
But I don't really hate any of it. I'm fascinated by it. I'm fascinated by us, by humanity. Both by how I'm apart of it and how I feel separate from it. It can be applied to so many other facets, but our current obsession with entertainment seems to be the most appropriate way to express how I feel towards existence in general.
I'm not making much sense, I know.
I always joke about how I feel old. I truly feel that way, to some extent. Right now... I feel like I'm on my way out. I'm not afraid, and I'm not sad, and it's not just because I know it's unlikely. I'm simply alright with it. It feels like I've innately accepted it.
No, don't react like I'm threatening suicide. I'd never do anything so silly. I simply feel like I wouldn't be surprised if a pinless grenade were to land in my lap right now.
Maybe this is morbid, but I don't much care.
For all my cynicism, I love this world. I love its denizens. I love YOU. I've been insufficient in expressing it, I haven't awarded attention or affection to anyone as much as they deserve, especially some, but it does exist. In spades.
This is all so very odd. So very puzzling. So very amusing. So very pleasant.
Whether I've got a hundred seconds or a hundred years left in my life, I'll enjoy as much of it as I can. See ya'll around.