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This Christmas... Holy crap, around 2-3 AM christmas morning I was up talking to Alex and Matt Weaver, mostly Alex. I asked Matt what he got her for christmas and he said a ring :8?D, I was like ohhh kool, is it an engagement ring or a just because I love you ring he was like an engagement ring I was like oh, when are you going to give it to her, good luck,,,, he was like I already did,,, oh, why didnt she tell me?......................
Basically I felt really shitty,, like my best best friend right next to Milkdud, she knows pretty much just about as much as him about me... but pretty much I feel like all my friends around here ditch me and I have been really alone lately and just shruggin my shoulders and I really was upset that she didnt tell me when he asked her or gave it to her or anything like that, and none of my friends call me everyother week or once a month even to say hey or to see if I wanna hang out, and I was soo upset I felt like I didn't have anyone, so I was crying really hard it was rediculous then I went to bed at 6am and woke up at 10am and my brother put me down alot while he was here, I think he was living with my gram too long.....
Jessica you can't be upset I didn't tell you about this next part cuz I was goin to when you came up tonight but you never came up!,, again another thing like I was talkin about ha ha but its all good, just you can't be mad at me for not telling you that...
ANYHOW!!!! THEN! at about 4pm Mlikdud called me,,, HE CALLED ME PEOPLE!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FREAKIN HAPPY I WAS/AM??? and I was so excited he was calling that I wanted to just talk to him privately and hear his voice for the first time and just be alone, so I went out and sat in my moms car,,, without shoes in 15 degree weather lol it was cold but it was soo worth it, we talked for about a half hour and it made my entrie life, like I am the happiest person ever and I mean I got alot of kick ass christmas gifts,,, but that was the best of them all, nothing could top that, my bestest friend Milkdud, the man of my dreams, just to hear his beautiful voice, I loved it, I could seriously talk to him forever, even just listen to him talk,,, he has a little bit of an accent, hes just amazing, he doesnt like his voice but I love it and I wouldn't change it for the world, I really don't even think he knows how happy that made me that he called,,, its ok that he doesn't like his voice because I don't either,,, I don't think anyone likes there voice, but I loved his voice, it just goes with his soul, hes just a fantastic 8th world wonder and y'all would be lucky to talk to him, he's the best thing that ever happend to me,,, and I know I talk like we're dating but we aren't, he just means that much to me, I really care about him beyond belief and hes just really sweet, he told me he mailed me something yesterday, and it'll probably get her monday or tuesday and I'm gonna check everyday because I can't wait,,, he said it was nothin big but that doesnt' matter to me, i told him even if its just a paperclip bracelet he made me that I would keep it and love it and cherish it forever, and if its a piece of paper with a smiley face i would put it on my fridge when i get my own place, he just means so much to me I say I don't think he realizes how amazing he is and what he truly means to me, but I don't think y'all realize either. I seriously wish I could give him just a huge hug, I wish I could send him fresh flowers everyday, I wish I could have one slow dance with him to "I Swear" and I know I never wish cuz they don't come true but I'm tired of believing that, I want to make them come true. if any of you people are tired of hearing about This amazing young man, don't tell me cuz I don't wanna hear it, he's someone who has been through alot and came a long way since I first met him and he's someone I'm really proud of and he will always be a part of my life, so get over it!... I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY HE CALLED ME! MURRY CHRISTMAS URRY BUDDY!!!!!!!! (his call was the best gift,,, EVER!)
Now I gotta go take a shower, shave, use this proactiv I got, and get to bed!!!! I got 4 hours of sleep last night and today I'm sleeping in LATE!!! But I might get up early incase he decides he might like to call again lol,,, or incase Jess just got lost and is just happening to be showing up a day later, BRIDGET I LOVE YOU GIRL, YOU KICK ASS AND I MISS YOU SOO MUCH, I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER, YOU'RE NOT ALONE, YOU JUST DON'T HAVE A SNUGGLE BUNNY BUT THATS OK!!! We gonna be roommates for life someday :8?),,, State test in like 5 days maybe? I dunno~!@$!#$@! I LOVE YOU ALEX, I LOVE YOU JESSICA, I LOVE YOU BRIDGET!~!~!
Basically I felt really shitty,, like my best best friend right next to Milkdud, she knows pretty much just about as much as him about me... but pretty much I feel like all my friends around here ditch me and I have been really alone lately and just shruggin my shoulders and I really was upset that she didnt tell me when he asked her or gave it to her or anything like that, and none of my friends call me everyother week or once a month even to say hey or to see if I wanna hang out, and I was soo upset I felt like I didn't have anyone, so I was crying really hard it was rediculous then I went to bed at 6am and woke up at 10am and my brother put me down alot while he was here, I think he was living with my gram too long.....
Jessica you can't be upset I didn't tell you about this next part cuz I was goin to when you came up tonight but you never came up!,, again another thing like I was talkin about ha ha but its all good, just you can't be mad at me for not telling you that...
ANYHOW!!!! THEN! at about 4pm Mlikdud called me,,, HE CALLED ME PEOPLE!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FREAKIN HAPPY I WAS/AM??? and I was so excited he was calling that I wanted to just talk to him privately and hear his voice for the first time and just be alone, so I went out and sat in my moms car,,, without shoes in 15 degree weather lol it was cold but it was soo worth it, we talked for about a half hour and it made my entrie life, like I am the happiest person ever and I mean I got alot of kick ass christmas gifts,,, but that was the best of them all, nothing could top that, my bestest friend Milkdud, the man of my dreams, just to hear his beautiful voice, I loved it, I could seriously talk to him forever, even just listen to him talk,,, he has a little bit of an accent, hes just amazing, he doesnt like his voice but I love it and I wouldn't change it for the world, I really don't even think he knows how happy that made me that he called,,, its ok that he doesn't like his voice because I don't either,,, I don't think anyone likes there voice, but I loved his voice, it just goes with his soul, hes just a fantastic 8th world wonder and y'all would be lucky to talk to him, he's the best thing that ever happend to me,,, and I know I talk like we're dating but we aren't, he just means that much to me, I really care about him beyond belief and hes just really sweet, he told me he mailed me something yesterday, and it'll probably get her monday or tuesday and I'm gonna check everyday because I can't wait,,, he said it was nothin big but that doesnt' matter to me, i told him even if its just a paperclip bracelet he made me that I would keep it and love it and cherish it forever, and if its a piece of paper with a smiley face i would put it on my fridge when i get my own place, he just means so much to me I say I don't think he realizes how amazing he is and what he truly means to me, but I don't think y'all realize either. I seriously wish I could give him just a huge hug, I wish I could send him fresh flowers everyday, I wish I could have one slow dance with him to "I Swear" and I know I never wish cuz they don't come true but I'm tired of believing that, I want to make them come true. if any of you people are tired of hearing about This amazing young man, don't tell me cuz I don't wanna hear it, he's someone who has been through alot and came a long way since I first met him and he's someone I'm really proud of and he will always be a part of my life, so get over it!... I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY HE CALLED ME! MURRY CHRISTMAS URRY BUDDY!!!!!!!! (his call was the best gift,,, EVER!)
Now I gotta go take a shower, shave, use this proactiv I got, and get to bed!!!! I got 4 hours of sleep last night and today I'm sleeping in LATE!!! But I might get up early incase he decides he might like to call again lol,,, or incase Jess just got lost and is just happening to be showing up a day later, BRIDGET I LOVE YOU GIRL, YOU KICK ASS AND I MISS YOU SOO MUCH, I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER, YOU'RE NOT ALONE, YOU JUST DON'T HAVE A SNUGGLE BUNNY BUT THATS OK!!! We gonna be roommates for life someday :8?),,, State test in like 5 days maybe? I dunno~!@$!#$@! I LOVE YOU ALEX, I LOVE YOU JESSICA, I LOVE YOU BRIDGET!~!~!