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I have two bestest best friends in the world and I felt I got screwed over by both of them tonight... This is the most important fuck I've had in a while, but I still love you, just make sure you read all of it so you don't comment using your name ok?
Hollywood90210CA (9:10:55 PM): is it bad i make him my life?,,,, i mean you said i do and i know i do but is that really bad?
Friend (9:11:24 PM): in some ways
Hollywood90210CA (9:11:45 PM): just cuz im not dating him,,,, but if id be dating him it'd be different?
Friend (9:12:01 PM): no it wouldnt be different, i dont make him my life
Hollywood90210CA (9:12:12 PM): ... friend, be real girl
Friend (9:12:47 PM): im no where near as bad as you...he may mean everything to me and he may be my life....but i dont make him my life
Hollywood90210CA (9:13:08 PM): whats the difference of,,, he is my life,,, and i make him my life?
Friend (9:13:12 PM): i still do things with my friends...i can go a whole day without talking about him....i dont dread over things that he doesnt like about me....
Hollywood90210CA (9:13:36 PM): k
Hollywood90210CA (9:14:32 PM): sorry i mentioned it,,, so what did you do today?
Friend (9:14:53 PM): ummmm...yeah i sensed a little attitude there bobby...whats the problem?
I love you so much and I'm not mad or I would have went on a rampage I just felt kind of stuffed in the corner, you don't have to comment to this, if you feel like it just email me or something, but I'll explain how I feel,,, and I'm not using this persons name at all, so if anyone has any opions on the way they see it, leave a comment, and I have to ask my friend to not leave her name, you can leave a comment, just please not your name I don't wanna drag this into anything like that at all,,, I just gotta say that I still do things with my friends too when they call me to do something, and I could call every name in my lil book and no one would be home so I let them call me considering I don't drive and I'm always home accept today I went out,,, and I do go a whole day without talking about him to alot of people, I just talk to you about him because I thought you would like to hear whats goin on, but thats ok that you don't because I can't talk to you or my other bestest friend so I will just talk to a few gooder/best friends about him and I will just write it down or something its ok with me, I know I mention him alot in LJ but isnt that what this things kind for?... Also, I don't dread over things that he doesn't like about me, because he never tells me what he doesnt like about me, the things I dread over are things I don't like about myself... I asked a few good friends about this after hearing her resoponse because I needed to know if it was just me, and this was how that went...
(Me and ABC Friend's convo)
Hollywood90210CA (12:50:52 AM): one of my bestest friends made me feel like shit tonight,,, and she was just being honest but i was like,,, gahhhh
ABC Friend (12:52:39 AM): aw what happened
Hollywood90210CA (12:53:37 AM): cuz she told me it was bad that i made alex my world and she doesnt make her bif her world she still hangs out with friends and shit
Hollywood90210CA (12:53:54 AM): im like if someone called me to hang out,,, i would but no one does,,, and i dont have a life so why not make alex it you know?
ABC Friend (12:53:58 AM): yeah, well you still hang out with friends
ABC Firend (12:54:08 AM): yeah i understand
(I accidently closed the conversation of me and my other friend, but pretty much...)
She basically said she thinks its ok to make someone your life if they are a big part of it and you care alot about them, then why shouldn't you make them your everything? then I told her "i wish i was straight and you was single lol,,, cuz you always treated me good and even after we broke up we were still kool with each other,,, my god how times have changed ey?" which really is true,,, all my ex's were good to me, I just think me and her clicked more and we were better friends....