By JOVE. I think I got it.
For as long as I care to remember I've tended to go out to try to find something to do, or atleast people to be with, all the time. Because if other people are having a good time then some of it's bound to rub off. This is all well and good, love to get out with friends.
But I realize that I don't know what to do with myself when all this doesn't work out. I'm pretty good at killing time doing nothing important, and occassionally I get the drive to learn something. I don't necesarily want to hang out by myself, but when I need to, I don't know what to do.
I find this is the time when I get the most upset, barring people being nasty for no reason (old people get me the most, because damnit... they've been around long enough to know better). That is, being left with nothing but my thoughts.
A witty comment loses it's flair and an ignorant one just seems contrived without an audience. But then whose to judge if they are actually witty or even funny? It's terrible!
Hrrm in retrospect, I can't remember excatly what I had at the begining of this. Hope I'm not getting a fever again.
But I realize that I don't know what to do with myself when all this doesn't work out. I'm pretty good at killing time doing nothing important, and occassionally I get the drive to learn something. I don't necesarily want to hang out by myself, but when I need to, I don't know what to do.
I find this is the time when I get the most upset, barring people being nasty for no reason (old people get me the most, because damnit... they've been around long enough to know better). That is, being left with nothing but my thoughts.
A witty comment loses it's flair and an ignorant one just seems contrived without an audience. But then whose to judge if they are actually witty or even funny? It's terrible!
Hrrm in retrospect, I can't remember excatly what I had at the begining of this. Hope I'm not getting a fever again.