Frank is a tank.
You know what's kind of hard? Realizing that you can't be everything. And by everything, I mean to people. There's this role and that's all there is to it. You're either there a lot, or you're wanted just sometimes. I guess that I'm okay with that. Sometimes though, you hit this spot where you're not really a novelty anymore. Oh no, your charm has run out. What's someone supposed to do then? You're not even that great at that one thing you were supposed to be. Not anymore. It's bad of people to put you in that situation to begin with maybe, but are you supposed to re-invent yourself? I don't know. If yes, then I don't know how to. I wasn't very good at being myself to begin with.
I've also figured out that most people write what they do on here. Or hell. Don't write at all. But it's easier for me to write these things out so, I don't know, I can think them through. Read it a few times, make some changes, catch my drift.
Another thing. I don't like messing up people's lives. I really don't. And it's easy to blame myself. Real easy. There are specifics for this stuff I'm talking about, but that's not fair for me to say. So I'll generalize. Feeling personally responsible if someone's having a bad day is natural most times for me. I don't want to separate myself from other people by saying these things either. I just say them because they happen, so I'm guessing I'm not alone. But anyway. I haven't been feeling so good because a lot of things might be my fault. Or could be. Well, I'd give up a lot of things for people to get things back.
One more that I've been thinking about; Imperfections aren't obvious. Maybe some people get this opinion that I have a lot of things together like other people. Really, I don't though. And talent is a view. Personally, I think everyone else is more interesting and are better people than I am, especially ones I know real well. If it wasn't weird to tell them, I would.
And then there's smaller things I've thought about, but that'll probably be later. or just not at all.
I've also figured out that most people write what they do on here. Or hell. Don't write at all. But it's easier for me to write these things out so, I don't know, I can think them through. Read it a few times, make some changes, catch my drift.
Another thing. I don't like messing up people's lives. I really don't. And it's easy to blame myself. Real easy. There are specifics for this stuff I'm talking about, but that's not fair for me to say. So I'll generalize. Feeling personally responsible if someone's having a bad day is natural most times for me. I don't want to separate myself from other people by saying these things either. I just say them because they happen, so I'm guessing I'm not alone. But anyway. I haven't been feeling so good because a lot of things might be my fault. Or could be. Well, I'd give up a lot of things for people to get things back.
One more that I've been thinking about; Imperfections aren't obvious. Maybe some people get this opinion that I have a lot of things together like other people. Really, I don't though. And talent is a view. Personally, I think everyone else is more interesting and are better people than I am, especially ones I know real well. If it wasn't weird to tell them, I would.
And then there's smaller things I've thought about, but that'll probably be later. or just not at all.