Where I will end up
I don't know where I will end up. I absolutely love Utah, my friends that are here and the life I have made for myself. But I find myself wondering from time to time if this is where I belong. If there isn't a better place for me to be than in Utah.
I didn't stray far from home, though I like to think I went far enough to not have to go there ever. And I do a pretty good job of avoiding it. But is Utah where I belong?
And what am I doing? What purpose do I have in life, why am I alive and kicking? I know everyone questions why they are here, on this planet, and alive. I am not sure why I am here. I try to be a good person, be productive in some aspect of society... but what does it all lead to? In the end I am still going to die and return to the dust of the earth physically. Am I just here to have a good time? To make babies and reproduce? To live a solitary life?
These are just questions that run through my head regularly. I am sure everyone thinks about them. I just find myself lacking motivation to accomplish the goals I set because well, in the end, what good are those benchmarks?
I didn't stray far from home, though I like to think I went far enough to not have to go there ever. And I do a pretty good job of avoiding it. But is Utah where I belong?
And what am I doing? What purpose do I have in life, why am I alive and kicking? I know everyone questions why they are here, on this planet, and alive. I am not sure why I am here. I try to be a good person, be productive in some aspect of society... but what does it all lead to? In the end I am still going to die and return to the dust of the earth physically. Am I just here to have a good time? To make babies and reproduce? To live a solitary life?
These are just questions that run through my head regularly. I am sure everyone thinks about them. I just find myself lacking motivation to accomplish the goals I set because well, in the end, what good are those benchmarks?