this is me, getting over you
I hate growing up.. things get too difficult.. Then again you start to realize that it's some what like this for every1. Take my next door neighbor for example. She's a beautiful girl.. with a beautiful little daughter, the age of my baby nephew .. (6) She is living with a male roommate who has a son. They are not an item. She has a boyfriend, that she met. He tends to drink, then again so does she. The other day, she sent her daughter over to come get either my sister or myself. She needed some1 to open up to. She was in tears. She had no money to feed her child. And she said she felt bad leaving the daughter up to us a lot of times. We totally don't mind, she is a great kid. Come to think about it, this went on , on new years. We invited them over, so they would have aplace to be for the holiday. I wish those are tears or a situation I never would have come across. I don't like to see people struggle so much. She just so happens to have a kidney stone infection, and has no money for the pills. My brother says that if it does not get treated, it may be deathly. On top of this, a whole bunch of cops were outside her apartment just the other day. I found out later.. That her and her boyfriend got into an argument. He whacked her, she whacked him. Not too bad. But when her boyfriend left he ended up calling the cops and saying that he was afraid she might hurt herself. So they came and picked her up took her to some looney bin, for an hour.. and released her. Her male roommate, who is crazy about her.. was upset.. gave her the option to either A. leave her boyfriend, or B. get out of the apartment. The next day, sitting right beside her as she spoke with her friend on the phone.. She pretty much excused her boyfriend's behavior for having hit her.. but regreted hitting him back.. because you know-- that's a "no-no" I mean that's sad. She claims to love him, and that's understandable. She feels lonely. But from all I've heard about him, he's worthless. He's no good. The outcome, she has to move somewhere higher up in Florida, back with an old lady who had adopted her some time ago. The sad story never ends? Or will it, I hope it does. For her sake, and my own as well.
Some changes in my life are about to occur. I just found a male roommate that I'm going to be living with. My mom doesn't like the idea of that. I don't blame her, really. But I just think it is something that will make me feel good about myself. As in living out on my own. Right now, where am I living? in a two (2) bedroom apartment with:
1. my sister
2. her boyfriend
3. nephew
4. neice
5. mom
6. dad
7. cat #1
8. cat #2
9. dog
Where do I sleep? Wherever I can fit.
How do I feel? alienated, unhappy
My mother says: You can move in with me when I buy a house here in Naples (when will that be, and what's the point?) She is upset that I am leaving to live with a guy-- yet she doesn't give me the option to gain comfort at home through her. Why would I want to continue being miserable
My brother says I can always move back in with him and his girlfriend. Note to self: left previously because shes a disrespectful snotty whore. =)
I love my brother but hes just as confused as I am. I love my sister -- she understands me, and for the reason I used to not get along with her-- which is because she tends to hide her emotions or act like everything is okay.. I look up to her because of it, and I understand why she acted this way as a teenager, and still does. I love her much. I love the kids(neice and nephew) I love my mom, because she is my mom-- and she tries the least bit-- but we dont see eye to eye on anything. My father I love him, hes an oversized teddy bear. Not that hes fat, but hes my daddy.
I have moved back and forth so many times, I started off with a lot of furniture peices and uhmm how do you say "memories" .. I did away with a lot of it, because it's tough keeping track of too many belongings. MY mothers not very proud of me and my decisions. I personally don't see where I had gone wrong. I have never done drugs, I dont smoke-- and never have tryed the stuff.. I completed high school with straight A's my senior year. I worked hard, right after I graduated high school , i started college. Im currently enrolled in college, and working full time.. I have a 3.2 gpa.. i pay for my car.. and all my stuff with my own money. She doesn't help me. Yup all the conditions of a rotten child. I plan to move into the apartment and not let any1 know my address. I need to be away for a little bit. Until I can think of what to make of my life? Where to live? What's my career? What are my priorities? What this life is for?
...your just special in your own way...
Until next time!
Some changes in my life are about to occur. I just found a male roommate that I'm going to be living with. My mom doesn't like the idea of that. I don't blame her, really. But I just think it is something that will make me feel good about myself. As in living out on my own. Right now, where am I living? in a two (2) bedroom apartment with:
1. my sister
2. her boyfriend
3. nephew
4. neice
5. mom
6. dad
7. cat #1
8. cat #2
9. dog
Where do I sleep? Wherever I can fit.
How do I feel? alienated, unhappy
My mother says: You can move in with me when I buy a house here in Naples (when will that be, and what's the point?) She is upset that I am leaving to live with a guy-- yet she doesn't give me the option to gain comfort at home through her. Why would I want to continue being miserable
My brother says I can always move back in with him and his girlfriend. Note to self: left previously because shes a disrespectful snotty whore. =)
I love my brother but hes just as confused as I am. I love my sister -- she understands me, and for the reason I used to not get along with her-- which is because she tends to hide her emotions or act like everything is okay.. I look up to her because of it, and I understand why she acted this way as a teenager, and still does. I love her much. I love the kids(neice and nephew) I love my mom, because she is my mom-- and she tries the least bit-- but we dont see eye to eye on anything. My father I love him, hes an oversized teddy bear. Not that hes fat, but hes my daddy.
I have moved back and forth so many times, I started off with a lot of furniture peices and uhmm how do you say "memories" .. I did away with a lot of it, because it's tough keeping track of too many belongings. MY mothers not very proud of me and my decisions. I personally don't see where I had gone wrong. I have never done drugs, I dont smoke-- and never have tryed the stuff.. I completed high school with straight A's my senior year. I worked hard, right after I graduated high school , i started college. Im currently enrolled in college, and working full time.. I have a 3.2 gpa.. i pay for my car.. and all my stuff with my own money. She doesn't help me. Yup all the conditions of a rotten child. I plan to move into the apartment and not let any1 know my address. I need to be away for a little bit. Until I can think of what to make of my life? Where to live? What's my career? What are my priorities? What this life is for?
...your just special in your own way...
Until next time!