thanks
To whatever fuck was considerate enough to leave an empty beer bottle in my back seat, nice to know my friends are concerned about my well being. I didnt get pulled over, but that's besides the point.
So someone got a hold of my checks, I'm assuming its the same person who broke into the old apartment. Granted the shit they took from me...tv, gamecube, ps2 games...I didn't really give a fuck about, but still...they stole from me! They stole my roommates vibrator and paintball gun too. Anyway, thats old news but now that I see someone is trying to cash my checks, well, probably the same person.
Work is...ok. Its definately something I've never done, besides my stint at the inland gas station, but this is retail. Its kinda fun talking to people about computers and whatnot all day, easy for me as well. I dont know that I'll be staying there though, really no future in it. I guess in the meantime I'll just take it easy with that part time job so I'll still have time to do other stuff, like making more music.
I met a girl who wanted to fuck. Now for me thats interesting and all but as much as I've tried to be in the past I could never be a whore. Well, so i thought. At the end of this I said something that I really never thought I would ever say. Now, several days pass and I guess I'm being used. So I was upset, pretty much didnt want to see her after that, although she wanted to be friends. I find it pretty hard to maintain relationships with someone I've been with. Then after that relationship, and after what I said...I just decided fighting isnt worth it anymore. People are so upset, people are worried about what the other thinks. All you can think of is hate and maybe they are talking shit about you every day, but maybe they really arent. Relationships hurt so much, and in the beginning of the end maybe sometimes there is no real way to control your feelings, your rage. So I tried to make amends, and then with my other ex caroline. Through my rage and my bottled emotions I've made many wrong decisions. Those are impulses that I wished never happened but I can't really sit back and regret, just make action on them. If youre pride is too high to cooperate well fuck you, everyone hurts, don't tell me you hurt more than me. Things have changed, I know for a fact I haven't conquered all my demons but at least I've made progress.
So someone got a hold of my checks, I'm assuming its the same person who broke into the old apartment. Granted the shit they took from me...tv, gamecube, ps2 games...I didn't really give a fuck about, but still...they stole from me! They stole my roommates vibrator and paintball gun too. Anyway, thats old news but now that I see someone is trying to cash my checks, well, probably the same person.
Work is...ok. Its definately something I've never done, besides my stint at the inland gas station, but this is retail. Its kinda fun talking to people about computers and whatnot all day, easy for me as well. I dont know that I'll be staying there though, really no future in it. I guess in the meantime I'll just take it easy with that part time job so I'll still have time to do other stuff, like making more music.
I met a girl who wanted to fuck. Now for me thats interesting and all but as much as I've tried to be in the past I could never be a whore. Well, so i thought. At the end of this I said something that I really never thought I would ever say. Now, several days pass and I guess I'm being used. So I was upset, pretty much didnt want to see her after that, although she wanted to be friends. I find it pretty hard to maintain relationships with someone I've been with. Then after that relationship, and after what I said...I just decided fighting isnt worth it anymore. People are so upset, people are worried about what the other thinks. All you can think of is hate and maybe they are talking shit about you every day, but maybe they really arent. Relationships hurt so much, and in the beginning of the end maybe sometimes there is no real way to control your feelings, your rage. So I tried to make amends, and then with my other ex caroline. Through my rage and my bottled emotions I've made many wrong decisions. Those are impulses that I wished never happened but I can't really sit back and regret, just make action on them. If youre pride is too high to cooperate well fuck you, everyone hurts, don't tell me you hurt more than me. Things have changed, I know for a fact I haven't conquered all my demons but at least I've made progress.