carried by the wheels of armageddon
so the new year has arrived. unfortunately, the world didn't end this time either. i don't feel particularly fit right now to reflect properly on the year just passed; i'm tired and not the happiest i've ever been, so i don't want my current mood to color my recollections. however, i think my dissatisfaction at the moment lends itself quite well to making some resolutions. after all, when you get right down to it, i have only myself to blame for ever feeling like shit. i figure if i make some resolutions now, it just might help me to tackle some of the most common roots of my frustration. so here they are:
1. i resolve to not blow/miss/in any way fuck up any more opportunities when they present themselves. moments are made only for seizing, not for wasting.
2. i resolve to say what the fuck is on my mind. no more holding back, beating around the bush, or freezing up. also, no more changing the subject when something important but difficult to talk about comes up. i know i have things to say; they need to start coming out loud and fucking clear.
3. i resolve to get enough fucking sleep. i don't want to be walking around dead anymore. i feel like i'm really starting to miss things; if this life is to be lived fully, i had better be fully conscious to do it.
4. i resolve to travel as much as i can. i need to explore this world before it fucking disappears on me.
basically, i resolve to do everything i did NOT do tonight.
tonight could have been so much better.
tonight could have begun something much more important, much more special, much more beautiful than a new year.
tonight could have cleared my mind.
tonight did none of these things and it is my own fault.
tonight i am taking responsibility for my own stupidity.
tonight i am fucking serious.
tomorrow i start anew.
so fuckin tell me why, we couldn't stay. don't let these feelings ever go away....
1. i resolve to not blow/miss/in any way fuck up any more opportunities when they present themselves. moments are made only for seizing, not for wasting.
2. i resolve to say what the fuck is on my mind. no more holding back, beating around the bush, or freezing up. also, no more changing the subject when something important but difficult to talk about comes up. i know i have things to say; they need to start coming out loud and fucking clear.
3. i resolve to get enough fucking sleep. i don't want to be walking around dead anymore. i feel like i'm really starting to miss things; if this life is to be lived fully, i had better be fully conscious to do it.
4. i resolve to travel as much as i can. i need to explore this world before it fucking disappears on me.
basically, i resolve to do everything i did NOT do tonight.
tonight could have been so much better.
tonight could have begun something much more important, much more special, much more beautiful than a new year.
tonight could have cleared my mind.
tonight did none of these things and it is my own fault.
tonight i am taking responsibility for my own stupidity.
tonight i am fucking serious.
tomorrow i start anew.
so fuckin tell me why, we couldn't stay. don't let these feelings ever go away....