Ouch
This sucks. I'm so pissed I was so weak but not really surprised. Why the hell can't I get over this fear and frustration. It's supposed to keep me safe and all it does is keep me miserable. I mean, I had a plan, I had a speech, and I thought I had the strength. And from the moment I got there that plan meant shit. It fell apart like tissue paper. I wanted to handle this with some grace and honesty. So much for that. I'm still not liking who I am.