Still have Japanese homework to do, but...
I'm feeling pretty numb right now. Just...felt like putting this little something up here.
If this doesn't make sense...I apologize .____. I'll beta this and maybe finish it proper once I stop tearing up. [Slowly nods] Unnn......
( 그것만이 내 세상... )
If this doesn't make sense...I apologize .____. I'll beta this and maybe finish it proper once I stop tearing up. [Slowly nods] Unnn......
( 그것만이 내 세상... )
Awawawawaaa *w* thank you for coming back to comment, bb! I was surprised to see this in my inbox today LOL... -- but now to the reply...
My "first" bias was Changmin, actually [sheepish laugh], but then again, that was back when I wasn't really *into* TVXQ. When I came "back" to them (if you want to call it that...) two years later, the first member that struck me was none other than Jaejoong...and I've been loyal to that sudden warm feeling that welled up in my chest hearing his voice for the first time ever since then *^^* For me, that hasn't wavered in the least...
I guess that's why it pained me so to hear all the discouraging comments / reactions / undercurrent of doubt in this fandom when the lawsuit situation first came up. I know there was lots of anxiety, impatience, sadness -- but most of all, a feeling of BETRAYAL that the 'side' of JaeSuChun (believe me when I say I don't believe in these sides, either, bb T__T believe me, I don't) would put the group's security at risk like this. And, of course, when the 'HoMin "statements"' appeared, there was even more of a general feeling of anger and betrayal from many fans...but more sadness than anger...
Myself, I feel the same as you. I've thought it through that week after HoMin's 'statements' were released. I thought about the possibility that this could all be really happening. I thought about walking away for barely a minute before I wanted to pinch myself. For being such a weak girl. For even THINKING such a thing. Because, really, I knew I couldn't do it, because I loved them -- ALL OF THEM -- too much to do such a thing.
I believe in them, too, love. 250%, my heart feels fuller when I think of how strong my belief has grown to be. Especially hearing such reassuring words of support from a faithful fan like you. :'] Somehow, I just know there's a light at the end of the tunnel - and that, even if we can't see it, the very least we can do for them is believe it. To give back even just a bit of that silent support TVXQ has given us, whether they realize it or not. To follow our hearts - because we certainly can't switch them off...and, if we had, we would have never fallen for them in the first place. That's what I believe in, too. [Sage nods]
Thank you for returning and giving me something else to think about today, bb. ♥♥♥♥♥ Always keeping the faith right here, yes. ^^ Always.
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I don't know why, but DBSK has really stolen my heart away. I've only been a fan for about seven months now, but I just love them. So much...
It's like, for them I feel UNCONDITIONAL love. You know? It bugs me when fans expect things of the boys, they feel that the boys owe them something. But they don't, we're fans because we want to be. At any moment, I can choose to turn my back on them. But I won't. So it's a choice on my part... Therefore I can never ask them for anything. And I can never be disappointed in them.
It's so weird, I've learned so much from DBSK and this fandom.
Haha sorry, my comment doesn't have much to do with the conversation we were having, but it'ssomething I've been thinking about. XD
Love you, bb! Keep writing!
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>3<;; Waaaahhh, thank you? LOL It's not the first time I've been called "cute," but your words make me go 0////0 anyway~~...I don't believe it myself, so I guess that's why hehehe >w<;;
Truly, your words ring true to me. (And don't worry about it not relating to our conversation -- I love tangents; they make life so much more fun! :D) I've only been a fan of them for just under a year myself (2nd week of Dec marks the anniversary week for me), but I've come to realize just how much my WORLD has completely changed because of them -- my perceptions on life, love, friendship, music, and everything else in between -- and that's why I too don't want to give up on them. :'] Just keep loving them faithfully and unconditionally...that's what my heart is telling me, and that's what I choose to believe in. TVXQ and nothing else. Even when my heart is wrought with doubt, I'll always come back to the call of that 'rational' side of me [if you can call it that LOL more like a sentimental ideal, I think... =w=] that says I shouldn't give in to what other people think or say. Even when my heart aches...it's a warm and wonderful ache that I wouldn't replace for anything. *w* That's how I feel these days.
Thank you, bb, and I love you too!! >////<;;; And I'll always keep writing, absolutely! I don't think I could even TRY to stop at this point, I've become so inspired....... Really, though, thank you so much for the support!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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Tangents ftw!
I totally agree with everything you said... They really have changed my life in a way that nothing else ever has. And they don't even know I exist. XD My family and friends, they just don't get it. -_- They just see it as an unhealthy obsession or something. T_T But even so, I don't care. At this point, DBSK means more to me than their opinions, because I know they can't understand. So I'm really happy you feel the same way about them, because I have someone I can relate to in all of this. ^_^
Hehe, my pleasure!!! <333
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