fucking grey matter.
I cant get out of my head how odd my life is. I mean, on one hand i have a ton of friends and can turn to alot of people at once and my social life is good for me, but on the other hand I have a ton of talents i dont pursue and i dont know what the FUCK i want to be doing right now. my job is one of the best ever, but at the same time, the mood swings of the workplace are stupid as hell and i dont really like how hard it is to read someones position on something there. i have another job too that i havent started yet, but i think there is gonna be alot less personal shit there, so for that im excited cause i wont get caught in that net again. im thinking about quitting at the theater cause, honestly, the job is glorious for only 1 reason. free movies. alot of people would call me stupid for quitting, the job being easy, but i like to challenge myself and get paid decent for it at the same time, neither of which happen at the theater. there is alot of aledged promotion possibility, but its a question of if its worth it cause i have A L O T more potential than that place and i fucking KNOW i can do way better, its just gonna take some time to tap it. i hope aaron doesnt stay in a funk, even tho i know he just got dragged by the nuts because of someone elses fuck up. it sucks tho cause when life throws shit at you that is not fair at all, you cant help but fuckin biff HARD. sucks for everyone around you just cause they know how you feel, but i mean shit, what can anyone do. i dont know. im just being shown how fucking stupid things ((i.e. goodrich)) can be cause someone doesnt have the balls to step up. MAN i feel like an idiot for bitching about a minimum wage job that a monkey could pull off. im seriously above that, but its fucking with my life and my friends, so i feel a bit vengeful. everyone tells me things will work out fine there and i should just stick it out, but for what. 4 years from now ill be making MAYBE 30k a year when i could have finished school and tripling that after 4 years? seriously, think about that. yeah, i know im not in school, but as long as im getting a paycheck that i earn in a job that doesnt have me watching my back, there is absolutely no point in settling for ass pay for less work. thats some major pussy shit right there and here i am sitting in it. well, im gonna stop ranting, but i wanna hear opinions cause whats life all about besides people? im not here to survive my life, im here to live it.