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"Am I just paranoid or am I just stoned!?"
-Basket Case, Green day
Well I think we all know the answer to that one. God
I hope we all know the answer to that one. Im
stoned...not paranoid....I mean..um...I'm really not
paranoid...I swear.
Well now that that's over with, on with the Journal
entry. So I think I may finally be close to the path
of figuring it all out. It being life. I don't want to
speculate, God knows I might be wrong. But here is a
little bit of what is going on in my mind.
Im sitting in my living room at around 5:45 in the
P.M. I was the bartender at the very trendy, very
upscale, and some what pretentious NYC restaurant in
which I'm employed. Its Sunday which in Restaurant
talk means Brunch. I wont bore you with the details
because most of you reading this have served a sunday
brunch somewhere. So im home now and its raining, so
Im reflecting. Reflecting on the last few weeks, the
last few days. Im brewing a pot of coffee in a french
press...fabulous...So i've been working on "bettering"
myself. Im using what I call the Grivitz Plan. I get
up the morning around 10:00, put on some gym clothes,
hit the grivitz and go and work out. It worked like a
charm. I love going now and i've lost about 15
pounds...Im almost my resume weight now..So then I
come home and chill out before I go to work. I tivo
all my shows (Family Guy, American Dad, Greys Anatomy,
Robot Chicken, Real World\Roadrules Inferno II,
American Idol, Revelations, and of course Smallville).
Can you believe that just a year ago I only watched
Buffy and Angel. Tivo does some fucked up shit to you
man...i tell you what. Im usually in bed by midnight
or 1:00. I stopped drinking on March 23rd. This is
going to come to a great shock to a lot of people who
have known me over the years...and it came to an even
greater shock to the people that have known me
recently. I was a pretty big drinker. The funny
thing is...It wasn't hard at all. I drank on two
occasions since then...both times reaffirming that I
just don't want to drink anymore. I still have my
grivitz fun...alot...which definitely helped me stop
drinking.
Well my whole point in all this is the following:
I've finally started to do all the things that I have
to do to be successful in this business we call show
and now my definition of success is changing. As I get
older my priorities are changing. A beautiful artsy
town like Asheville NC sounds amazing. Im not saying
that I am at all done with NY...just thinkin is all.
Matthew
-Basket Case, Green day
Well I think we all know the answer to that one. God
I hope we all know the answer to that one. Im
stoned...not paranoid....I mean..um...I'm really not
paranoid...I swear.
Well now that that's over with, on with the Journal
entry. So I think I may finally be close to the path
of figuring it all out. It being life. I don't want to
speculate, God knows I might be wrong. But here is a
little bit of what is going on in my mind.
Im sitting in my living room at around 5:45 in the
P.M. I was the bartender at the very trendy, very
upscale, and some what pretentious NYC restaurant in
which I'm employed. Its Sunday which in Restaurant
talk means Brunch. I wont bore you with the details
because most of you reading this have served a sunday
brunch somewhere. So im home now and its raining, so
Im reflecting. Reflecting on the last few weeks, the
last few days. Im brewing a pot of coffee in a french
press...fabulous...So i've been working on "bettering"
myself. Im using what I call the Grivitz Plan. I get
up the morning around 10:00, put on some gym clothes,
hit the grivitz and go and work out. It worked like a
charm. I love going now and i've lost about 15
pounds...Im almost my resume weight now..So then I
come home and chill out before I go to work. I tivo
all my shows (Family Guy, American Dad, Greys Anatomy,
Robot Chicken, Real World\Roadrules Inferno II,
American Idol, Revelations, and of course Smallville).
Can you believe that just a year ago I only watched
Buffy and Angel. Tivo does some fucked up shit to you
man...i tell you what. Im usually in bed by midnight
or 1:00. I stopped drinking on March 23rd. This is
going to come to a great shock to a lot of people who
have known me over the years...and it came to an even
greater shock to the people that have known me
recently. I was a pretty big drinker. The funny
thing is...It wasn't hard at all. I drank on two
occasions since then...both times reaffirming that I
just don't want to drink anymore. I still have my
grivitz fun...alot...which definitely helped me stop
drinking.
Well my whole point in all this is the following:
I've finally started to do all the things that I have
to do to be successful in this business we call show
and now my definition of success is changing. As I get
older my priorities are changing. A beautiful artsy
town like Asheville NC sounds amazing. Im not saying
that I am at all done with NY...just thinkin is all.
Matthew