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There have been so many things I have been thinking about, that I just want to get them out.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you, think what could have happened, what should have happened, but things turned out a little different than what I ever expected to. I thought you were the one, I mean you probably would have been the one, if people hadn't influenced. I was talking to a dear friend of mine today about the whole situation.
I have grown so much since that sad day. I felt hatred and anger, but towards the wrong person. Who wants to hate the one they love for not making the "right" decision, no one does. So I blamed the easiest person possible, the "enemy". He took everything from me, my best & my love. But I have grown a bit since then, & now I can tell you that there was no "enemy". I can't blame that person because at the end of the day it wasn't that person that made the "wrong" decision. I tried & tried and there is no one that can say I didn't. But in the end I guess you don't know what you have until it's gone.
Just know, that I do think about you everyday and what could have been. But if it was meant to be then it will be. I will always love you because you were such a big part of my life, but I am extremely happy with where I am in my life and wouldn't trade the world for it. I am more in LoVe than I think I could ever be. You will aLwAyS be a part of me.
It's really funny how things in life change. The people you meet and think will always be there, aren't there. I guess thats just how the cookie crumbles as they say. People make the decisions that they make and the people around them just have to deal. Some decisions made are not the best ones and some situations could have been handled differently, but things happened the way they did and that can't be changed, just learned from. And I know I have learned more than I ever thought I would. No matter what happened, you are still thought about because you were such a big part of my life. And I will always wish you the best in any and everything you do. But the past can't be erased. Things are said when you are just frustrated and want to vent, that ordinarally would not have been said or meant for that person to hear, but there's nothing you can do about it, although they may hurt, what's done is done and it can't be taken back. But not everything is one sided in hurtful situations. I would not intentionally want to hurt someone, but if hurt happened then it happened and there's not much that can be done about it. You are still mentioned in my stories and that will never change. There is no hatred toward you, just a little disappointment, but I'm sure there are people out there that are disappointed in me. I never thought that someone would cross that thin line, but it happened and nothing can be done about it now. What's done is done and now we just look back and hopefully learn from.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you, think what could have happened, what should have happened, but things turned out a little different than what I ever expected to. I thought you were the one, I mean you probably would have been the one, if people hadn't influenced. I was talking to a dear friend of mine today about the whole situation.
I have grown so much since that sad day. I felt hatred and anger, but towards the wrong person. Who wants to hate the one they love for not making the "right" decision, no one does. So I blamed the easiest person possible, the "enemy". He took everything from me, my best & my love. But I have grown a bit since then, & now I can tell you that there was no "enemy". I can't blame that person because at the end of the day it wasn't that person that made the "wrong" decision. I tried & tried and there is no one that can say I didn't. But in the end I guess you don't know what you have until it's gone.
Just know, that I do think about you everyday and what could have been. But if it was meant to be then it will be. I will always love you because you were such a big part of my life, but I am extremely happy with where I am in my life and wouldn't trade the world for it. I am more in LoVe than I think I could ever be. You will aLwAyS be a part of me.
It's really funny how things in life change. The people you meet and think will always be there, aren't there. I guess thats just how the cookie crumbles as they say. People make the decisions that they make and the people around them just have to deal. Some decisions made are not the best ones and some situations could have been handled differently, but things happened the way they did and that can't be changed, just learned from. And I know I have learned more than I ever thought I would. No matter what happened, you are still thought about because you were such a big part of my life. And I will always wish you the best in any and everything you do. But the past can't be erased. Things are said when you are just frustrated and want to vent, that ordinarally would not have been said or meant for that person to hear, but there's nothing you can do about it, although they may hurt, what's done is done and it can't be taken back. But not everything is one sided in hurtful situations. I would not intentionally want to hurt someone, but if hurt happened then it happened and there's not much that can be done about it. You are still mentioned in my stories and that will never change. There is no hatred toward you, just a little disappointment, but I'm sure there are people out there that are disappointed in me. I never thought that someone would cross that thin line, but it happened and nothing can be done about it now. What's done is done and now we just look back and hopefully learn from.